The only thing pleasant about this moon is its name. Actually, that's not true, it's not the moon that is making things difficult, it the energy and lessons of Pluto that are dominating our lives right now. As I thought about this New Moon post it seemed more important to focus on Pluto than on the moon. So the post for this moon cycle will be directing you to look up what house Pluto is in in your natal chart. Look for the Pluto symbol, and then look to see which house it is in, otherwise known as which section of the pie, it will have a number and that's how you know which house it is (Astrology 101). And then go to this site to read about Plutos lesson in that house. It seems everyone is facing something very specific these last few weeks that relates to Pluto.
I hope this helps shed some light and bring some clarity.
I really feel the energy of Spring. I feel myself like the little seed that was planted months ago and laid dormant through the Winter season, gathering strength and knowledge. And since then have been on a journey of growth, fighting every step of the way to be in the flow, to grow and navigate my way through the soil to break the surface of the earth. And now the reward is feeling the nurturing energy of the Sun and blossoming.
This Full Moon in Sagittarius is about integration. It is about taking what you have been through, the challenges and hardships of the past few months, and integrating them into the wisdom and understanding of life that will help you blossom into more of who you are. With this Full Moon we can pause and see the journey we have been on, how it has shaped us and landed us where we are (for better or worse). We look around and within and take in what we know to be true.
This is a time of growth, expansion, understanding, integration, truth and becoming.
Jupiter is the ruler of this Full Moon, and it is retrograding in the sign of Scorpio, so it is helping us to dive in and churn up deeper truths to examine and integrate. They feel like bite sized dives, so it won't be too overwhelming for your system. And it also means that it will be easier to integrate, a little at a time. So be aware of what moments of truth hit you, realizations, ah-ha moments, experiences that touch you and feel meaningful. On the surface these seem small but are actually very important right now. Be extra aware and grateful for them. Slow down and take in everything that is happening within you and around you.
It is a time to feel the power of gentleness, surrendering, joy, and truth.
With New Moons we get a pause, a moment where there is an opening, a gift of reprieve. This is a time where what we have been avoiding is RIGHT in our face - unavoidable and inescapable. But with this New Moon we get an opening of energy that comes in to support us in all the big shifts and changes that are happening. Yes, it is a very hard time, but it is also a magical time.
I will share, that personally, I feel big shifts trying to happen. Emphasis on the word trying, or rather they are happening within me and I am becoming acutely aware of the ways I am trying to stay in the old. This could be part of my fixed Scorpio nature, always wanting something to overcome, some challenge to be up against, some energy to transform. In a way it's terrifying to not have something to overcome and transform, and yet that is the place I feel I am being pushed to be in. A place where there is ease, calm, support, confidence in my bodies ability to handle things, health, partnership, abundance... being. And oh boy! Do I feel myself fighting it, even though it's everything I have been fighting to have! This is the ironic and hard part about where I feel like we are right now. We are actually getting pushed into a place where we have worked so hard to be and we are resisting it and fighting it every step of the way.
With this New Moon in Taurus and Uranus moving to the sign of Taurus (for the next seven years) we are being pushed to realign ourselves into some more positive energy and positive values. But what I see happening is we are being faced with all of our issues and all the ways we hang on, stay comfortable in the known (even if those ways are more difficult). We have an attachment to them and right now we don't want to let go! So while we are facing some of our deepest issues and patterns, with this New Moon we are also being given messages and signs about the way through. It's like finding a secret doorway in a room where you have been keeping yourself trapped. This New Moon is guiding all of us to find that secret door that we didn't know was there. It's so important to keep your eyes, ears, hearts, bodies open right now. Pay attention to things you see in repetition, people you keep running into, dreams you keep having, animals that keep showing up... anything where you notice a sequence. I am a big believer in the message of threes. The first time you encounter something/one, the second time could be a coincidence, but the third is a message not to be ignored. Follow these things right now - they are here to guide you through your big lessons and allow you to settle into and be open to what is shifting inside you.
Try to think about the fact that you are the room, the secret door AND the key.
Taurus energy is all about value, beauty, pleasure. Be sure to partake in things that stimulate your senses, that feel sensual and nurturing. In fact, these kinds of things just might be the key to opening that secret door. Just make sure that this energy isn't indulgent or feeding the old patterns and issues, but instead is a way through, is full of healing, and is supporting the new place you are being pushed to step into. And be sure you aren't using the energy of Taurus to escape the difficulty. You will be able to feel it - is it keeping you in the old, are you using it to escape, OR is it leading you through something into something new?
What would it be like to not react to our issues from our ego, from the known, from our minds wanting to figure it out, from fear... but instead to face our issues from a place of openness, curiosity, trusting, surrendering to the universe to be guided through that energy?
Q&A - Answering your questions about breathwork, self growth, creativity and minerals. In this episode I talk about how I came to breathwork, breathwork and manifestation, “who’s doing the answering”, being in the unknown, the difference between being inspired and copying, nurturing your creative voice, how minerals work, and minerals for the bath.
Before the podcast I did a live feed on Instagram with a few books I am reading that I would recommend. If you missed it, or want to reference them, here they are. She: Understanding Feminine Psychology by Robert A. Johnson The Enneagram: Understanding Yourself and the Others In Your Life by Helen Palmer
Your Soul's Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born by Robert Schwartz Medical Medium Life-Changing Foods by Anthony William The Secret Lives of Color by Kassia St Clair Reflections: Van Eyck and the Pre-Raphaelites by Alison Smith Mystical Symbolism: The Salon de la Rose+Croix in Paris, 1892–1897 by Vivien Greene and Jean-David Jumeau-Lafond
A close friend who is an incredible astrologer and all around wise man informed me that Saturn has gone into retrograde on April 17th, until September. "This will make for an interesting summer", he said. Those of you who have gone through your first Saturn return know that Saturn brings with it some big changes and hard lessons. While this planet is retrograding in the sign of Capricorn it will make sure that whatever lesson we have not faced will be unavoidable. This will make for a rough season until it goes direct.
This also seems to come at a time where with this Full Moon in Scorpio brings what has been suppressed, repressed, hidden, avoided, etc... to the surface. I don't know if you feel it, but I really have felt so confronted by my own issues. Being a Scorpio myself I love its energy, but it's rough right now. The good news is that all of this is in service to us becoming more whole. That's one of the amazing things about Scorpio, all of the death, letting go, surfacing of the dark, is in the name of truth and transformation. That is what Scorpios do best. But be careful, because the unhealthy side of Scorpio is that because they aren't afraid to look at the dark or feel the pain or see the s%*t they tend to be drawn to those things too much, or want to just stay in that energy when it isn't appropriate. As my teacher said recently (she's a Scorpio too), "Oh, I have one foot in the s%*t, I might as well put the other one there too." Use the magic and mystery of the Scorpio to keep you fluid and curious through this process, so you don't get stuck in the muck. But also be aware to not further avoid the issue at hand, otherwise you will have an even ruder awakening soon to come.
If you don't know what lessons Saturn and the Scorpio energy are bringing you. Just pay attention to any patterns you see happening in your life, around you and within you. What feels like it's everywhere you look? What feels challenging or like it's difficult because it feels like an old way of being? Your soul is ready to grow right now - times 100. So it will insure that whatever you have not faced inside yourself is everywhere you look outside of you. It will mirror your internal dynamic externally.
Don't avoid what is coming to the surface. Things come to the surface to be healed and transformed. It's a difficult time. No doubt. And right now it feels relentless. Like you can't have a break. Stay aware. In every moment there is an opportunity for growth. Just remember that. ;)
I have been writing these for about seven years now, two times a month. It started because I have always loved the moon since I was a kid and I wanted to understand on a deeper level how it was effecting me. My process over the years has developed into something so simple and yet so powerful for me. Around the time of the New or Full moon I just sit down at my computer an check in with myself. I ask myself what shifts I have felt, what I am going through, what have I heard others talking about - is there a theme, and I use my intuition about what I feel is headed our way. I have never read an astrology book or taken a class. But I instead just ask myself - What is going on? Over the years what I have observed has taught me about different energies, different signs, as well as the ebb and flow and how it affects us. And then I sit down to write for an hour and whatever comes out comes out. No editing, no research. Done.
This process has forced me to trust myself. I really feel that my commitment to going deeper has allowed me to be in touch with some sort of wisdom or energy that I feel I channel when I write these. I try to walk the line of knowing that there is something coming through me, a wisdom I can not take credit for, but I still try to honor and own my ability let it come through freely and be the vehicle that translates it for you all.
All of this to say that this month I am asking you to strengthen this skill in yourself. If I can do it, you can do it. It really is about committing, listening and trusting.
I have had a hell of a week and a full weekend intensive workshop with my teacher, and am so burnt out I don't have much to give. So, I am cutting myself some slack and asking you to tune in to yourself, others, your surroundings - the universe above you and within you. Start somewhere. Just ask yourself those questions above and see what you come up with. If you feel brave (which is like 99% of developing this skill) I ask that you share what you come up with in the comments.
Thank you to all who support this practice, those of you who are new and those who have read these since the beginning. Please start to spread and share these posts with others. I feel it is time these grew to reach the next level of readers.
I will be back in full force for the Full Moon in two weeks.
Happy New Moon to you!
Pierre Huyghe, "Liegender Frauenakt (Untilled)," 2011–12
There is a lot of intensity in the air with this Blue Full Moon in Libra, our second Full Moon this month. Though our moon is in the more feminine sign of Libra, we have it reflecting the full light of our sun in Aries. AND we have Mercury retrograding in the sign of Aries. So there is lots of Aries energy in the air. I have been feeling more of the Aries this last week and a half than I have the Libra energy, but we can learn to use the energy of Libra to help up get more into balance.
I don't want to imply that part of our work is to always be getting out of the energy we are in. Sometimes the answer is to stay. To stay in the energy or emotion even if it is uncomfortable. To not try to escape every uncomfortable moment or feeling. But, because the cosmos present us with constant opportunities for growth and astrological oppositional energies in which to do that it's good to learn how to access other energies to achieve more balance. And since we are in Libra, as stated above, balance is the name of the game right now.
With the Sun in Aries and the Moon in Libra we are really in a time of a one to one reflection of self (Aries) and other (Libra). It is why right now you might feel so much is being brought to the surface in your relationships, intimate, friendships, co-workers, etc... Our relationships with others mirror our relationship to ourselves. And with this retrograde it is a time of things rearranging themselves. We all know the surface information about Mercury in retrograde: breakdowns in communication, language, technology, etc... Mercury in retrograde has a bad wrap. But it is such a useful time as it breaks down what has been, to reveal what is ready to be. It is the cosmic earthquake that allows old ways of thinking and being to fall away so that something more true and in alignment with who you are now can emerge. Where retrogrades are not fun is if you resist this shakedown and where the retrograde is trying to move you. You have to surrender to where it is pushing you. You can not hold on to the old energy or it will become a very painful time. Imagine if you were trying to fit into the same size shoe you wore when you were 7. Not gonna happen. Time to move forward. You aren't not that size any more, you have grown. Accept it.
Times of growth can be really uncomfortable. But, try as much as you can to surrender to what is trying to reshape itself in your life.
Now on to balance. With all this Aries energy in the air things have been a little (or a lot) volatile. Aries is a fire sign and it feels like right now we are in the unhealthy version of fire, which is: irritation, anger, having a short fuse, judgment, impatience, etc... If you have felt these things in yourself or witnessed them in your relationships you are not alone. We can use the Libra Moon energy right now to help. Libra is all about harmony, peace and beauty. Spend time doing anything you can right now to cultivate those feelings in your life. Spending time in nature just being, noticing the simple beauty of something you encounter, slowing down and creating space in your life to feel more peace and stillness, meditate, rest, bringing in elements of beauty into your home, etc... This will help bring in to balance all of that Aries fire.
Whoa! What a two weeks! I don't know if you have felt it but it seems everyone I have been talking to, interacting with, listening to, helping, etc... has had a very difficult two weeks. I wish I could tell you why. I don't have an answer. The only thing I can offer is that it is a time to stay in our hearts, and cultivate our compassion, towards ourselves and others. It has been a heated two weeks, lots of emotions washing over us during this watery time in Pisces. We can use the energy of this sign to help us stay compassionate and empathetic to what we are going through, and what those around us are going through. Remember, we are all being put through the ringer right now. So when you feel triggered, take some deep breaths and connect to your heart. When you feel you are triggering someone else, take the time to talk it through and work it out in the moment calmly and open. When you see someone else being triggered, support them, find the empathic stance to take with them to help guide them through it, or just see their point of view (even if it is different from yours).
This watery time of Pisces has a lot of people leaking their emotions all over the place. It's a time to learn to hold them, own them, and use our intuition to navigate the waters that are rising within us. Take responsibility for what you are feeling, in responsibility there is power and freedom.
Also, Chiron is traveling in this Pisces Moon and Sun. If you don't know about Chiron I would look it up, read what it's about, and look at your chart and see where your Chiron is. Chiron is the wounded healer. Whatever house it is in is one of the wounds you must learn to own and overcome in this lifetime. Wounds are not meant to be healed by others, only ourselves. And right now it seems that this particular wound is being triggered - big time. When it is triggered it is up to us to do the healing, not the responsibility of the other person. Our wound in Chiron can be a gift at times, and a curse in others. I always try to keep an eye on mine, see how I am using it incorrectly, when I am coming from it and I shouldn't be, or seeing something falsely through its lense.
Stay connected to your heart, have compassion, use your intuition, own your emotions. We are moving from the water feminine energy into male active fire. So hang on!
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Boy, oh boy. This full moon has already got us on a roller coaster ride. This one is strongly pulling us into extreme emotional reactions (emphasis on the word reactions). If you notice this in yourself and in others there's not much you can do to not be under its effect. But, the good news is just as quickly as you swing to your emotional peaks it means you can just as easily get yourself unstuck and more grounded. The Pisces Sun really helps us out with this. If you feel like you are losing it, way down in the dumps, or boiling over with anger the best way to knock yourself back into alignment is by getting creative. This Pisces Sun brings with it the energy of play, creativity, joy, lightness and fun. Get outside, take a hike, put on fun music, get into the studio and make something.
This Virgo moon will help keep your feet on the ground, practical, and allow you to see the steps you need to take to get you to where you want to be. But, Pisces will make the journey getting there so much more fun. I can't stress being creative enough right now. Sometimes creativity just means problem solving in a creative way, thinking outside the box, or seeing something from a new perspective.
Not only do we have the Sun in Pisces but we also have about six other planets and celestial forces in this playful water sign. So don't let your emotional swings keep you down. Pisces will allow you to have movement, inspiration and motion. This can be especially helpful as we are focused on day to day practical living: how we spend our time, how we organize our home, how we take care of ourselves, ways we are of service, etc... Pisces is great energy to help shake that up, to help you recommit to focusing on the day to day in a way that feels fun, fulfilling and inspired. While Virgo can help get rid of the clutter, literally and physically, you will have ease this next week with knowing what to eliminate to help streamline your life. There is plenty of opportunity for more balance and positivity right now, you just have to choose it.
Gabriel Kuri, "Attempt 1 to arrest the flow from even A to event B", 2018