thea djordjadze

Thea Djordjadze


fétiche blason

Fétiche Blason

Vertigo Neck, Lacanian Knot (2012)


new moon // august


Green Corn Moon
Friday, August 14th, Leo, 7:53 am PST

Fiery, magnetic, vibrant, loving, courageous, creative LEO! Leo is always a fun sign to be under the influence of. Leo is my North Node in my natal chart. Your North Node points to the kind of experiences you must work on to create balance, growth, and fulfilment in this life (the South Node is the opposing sign and is the wisdom and experience that you have entered in with. You can find your North Nodes here). So, I think a lot about Leo energy. My mum was a Leo, and now that I know her as a spirit and feel her around me I feel she is helping to give me the gift of allowing this energy into my life more and more. 

Not only with this Moon, but also to no coincidence in my life, it is a time all about the heart. Leo is the ruler of the heart. Think about the Lion in The Wizard of Oz, cowardly and in search of a heart. He is so fearful and afraid without it. The heart is the missing piece to how we access our inner bravery. By now we know that a part of bravery is fear. Without that fear the act of bravery can not exist. They must sit side by side, we must acknowledge both. It's when we are moving through something not just despite our own fears, but including it as a truth that we have the opportunity to be brave. And it's the inclusion of the heart that allows us to summon our inner courageous Lion! It's the fire that propels us towards something. It's when we connect to the fierce love we have for ourselves and for others that allow us to create monumental acts of bravery in our lives.

It takes courage to love and to allow yourself to be loved by someone. 

We are in a time where Leo brings forth the archetype of the Queen. Her love is fierce, it is anchored deep in the heart, and it has honor and integrity. She is committed to herself, and to the desires of her own heart. This love can cut through old wounds and break patterns, it is clear in its direction and purpose. She understand in her feminine energy that the power to receive love is equal to the power of giving love.

Spend these next few days, these next few weeks, using this energy to help you express your heart. It is a time not just of feeling but also expression. Leos want to be seen! Let your inner Lion or Lioness roar, and allow yourself to align with your own inner wisdom and knowingness that comes from the heart.    

Don't forget to make your New Moon Wishes! You can read about how to do that here

ps - I also recommend this... life changer and it's in alignment with this Moon!

Robert Mapplethorpe - Grace Jones 1984, painted by the New York graffiti artist, Keith Haring.


measuring the soul

Psychometry (from Greek: ψυχή, psukhē, "spirit, soul" and μέτρον, metron, "measure"), also known as token-object reading, or psychoscopy, is a form of extra-sensory perception characterized by the claimed ability to make relevant associations from an object of unknown history by making physical contact with that object. Supporters assert that an object may have an energy field that transfers knowledge regarding that object's history.

Joseph Rodes Buchanan coined the word "psychometry" (measuring the soul) in 1842. Buchanan came up with the idea that all things give off an emanation.

The Past is entombed in the Present! The world is its own enduring monument; and that which is true of its physical, is likewise true of its mental career. The discoveries of Psychometry will enable us to explore the history of man, as those of geology enable us to explore the history of the earth. There are mental fossils for psychologists as well as mineral fossils for the geologists; and I believe that hereafter the psychologist and the geologist will go hand in hand — the one portraying the earth, its animals and its vegetation, while the other portrays the human beings who have roamed over its surface in the shadows, and the darkness of primeval barbarism! Aye, the mental telescope is now discovered which may pierce the depths of the past and bring us in full view of the grand and tragic passages of ancient history!

Ancient Egyptian rope from the Met


full moon // july // blue moon


Blue Moon
Friday, July 31, Aquarius, 3:42 am PST

Today is a special Moon, a Blue Moon, and we won't have one again until 2018. A Blue Moon is rare, hence the common phrase "once in a blue moon." A Blue Moon is when two Full Moons fall within one months time, it's partly why this month has been full of so much emotion. Today the Moon is in the Water sign of Aquarius, and the Sun is in the Fiery sign of Leo!

I want to focus on something else happening in the skies (and in us), a Grand Trine in the element of Water. This triangulation involves the planets Mars in Cancer, Saturn in Scorpio, and Chiron in Pisces, all water signs. We are in a time of emotion, compassion, intuition, sensitivity, empathy, imagination, and creativity. 

Full Moons always bring with it a wave of all kinds of intense emotions, but with the alignment of the Trine we are able to dive deeper into them, to use them, and explore them. We need not be at the effect of them, but we are being guided and supported to drop into them as a way to gain greater understanding of ourselves. Just like our past, emotions are not something we can run away from (or, if we do, we can only do so for so long). What would your life be like if you could transform your emotions, just by feeling them, and therefore carry them forward with you into your future? Empowerment does not come from running away, or getting stuck in the past. It comes from owning the emotions: the experience, the grief, the trauma, the sadness, the loss... I know it seems counter intuitive. We think that by feeling these things it will make us weak, but it is the resistance of the truth that makes us weak. It takes a whole ton of energy to resist. And in doing so we disconnect from our self. If you let yourself feel and explore you have the power to move through it, to be guided by it, to transform it, and grow from it. The dark is all about transformation. There is no transformation in the light, it's already light, there is nothing to transform. 

I know what I am talking about is an aspect of the same thing I write about here every month - Accessing your power through feeling your feelings. But, I believe this to be true with every cell in my body. If there is anything in this world I am passionate about and dedicated to it's helping people get in touch with what they feel, and not be afraid of what they might discover. 

During this Moon we have an opening, a porthole, to go deeper, and to trust that in going deeper you will be supported. Think about all the qualities of Water. Water is both powerful and fluid. There is new found clarity in its stillness. It is amorphic and abstract. It is about being in the unknown. That's what it sometimes feels like to be "in it", in the middle of our emotions. Sometimes there is no answer or definition. There is power in the unknown. 

See what happens these next two weeks for you by practicing being in the unknown. What does that mean to you? What resistance do you have to that state? What does it feel like to surrender? To be in the moment? What is possible in that place of the unknown? (pssst... I'll give you a hint... anything, anything is possible.)
That is my challenge to you. 

Happy Blue Moon

Jean Renaud dancing on a Paris rooftop, 1950


from around

- a fascinating story of two sets of identical twins separated at birth, and how so much of who we are is genetic. 

- sweating to Sappho - conceptual fitness

- the account of two women who on a visit to Versailles in 1901 entered into memories that were left on the grounds by Marie Antoinette. #timetravel

- The Whore of Mensa, by Woody Allen

- a really great piece about Sarah Charlesworth #shesamazing

- loving this video about how to be telepathic and communicate with the mind.

- four great shows I just saw in LA - 
Perfect Likeness at The Hammer
Russian Doll at M + B
Lovely Dark at Regen 

- a cement factory in Spain - turned into a contemporary castle 

- the FvF Friends Dinner! Berlin in LA! Last month I helped out with this dinner - pulling together friends and making the menu card for Sqirl! Super fun! 


new moon // july


Hay Moon
Wednesday, July 15th - Cancer, 6:24 pm PST

I don't know if you can feel it, but there seems to be some magic in the air. Something blowing in the wind, in the quality of light, in the encounters of the last few days. It almost feels like an opening, a space being created for some new energy to come flooding in. This is being brought to us by the New Moon in Cancer. Part of the reason we can feel it is because we just came out of a rather long and intense Full Moon. But, New Moons are lighter, they are where we align and make connections, where energy flows and things seems possible. Notice how effortless things are in the days around a New Moon, notice how things happen with ease. 

Even if there are emotions (old or new) surrounding you right now there is a sense of release in feeling them and letting them flow. Especially with this Moon in Cancer, emotions will no doubt be swelling up inside of you. These emotions that are surfacing will feel different than they have felt, especially compared to the last Full Moon, where they felt as if you couldn't control them and things seemed to come at you out of no where. Right now we are in a more gentle place energetically, it's not to say that there won't be difficulty, but there is a sense of ease when things arise. Emotions are natural right now, they are in alignment with the energy we are in while the Moon and Sun are in the sign of Cancer. 

There is a focus on nurturing, family, home, and comfort. Cancer is a very watery, highly emotional sign. I like to think about it as a huge, vast, expansive, and deep body of water. And then imagining an invisible container that holds this body of water. It's the container that allows all of the activity in the depths and the surface of the water to occur. It has to have something to hold it, to allow it to feel safe. It has to be held so it can take shape. That's what this time is about for us. Feeling into what we need to provide for ourselves so that we can feel safe to take shape, to feel the depths and the gifts of our emotional bodies. What do we need to do to create a safe, nurturing container? Things like setting boundaries, making space, taking solo time, nesting in our home, spending time with loved ones, writing or being creative... are all ways we can do this. The more we do this the safer we will feel, and the more free we will become to explore the depths and goodies of our emotional landscape. It also seems especially important to be connecting with our bodies right now, doing lots of movement and grounding, as our bodies are our literal containers for our inner, emotional lives. 

With New Moons there is also an opportunity to set some intentions and make some wishes. The Moon is holding an empty space for us to pause and take time to think about the kinds of things we would like to draw into our life, and look in the direction where we are headed. Read more about how to make your New Moon wishes here

Happy New Moon to you all.

Rock-crystal vessel, 4th–3rd century B.C.


the farway nearby

Someone gave me a book months ago. It took me until recently to get past the first page, I read it over and over and over, and would stop there. I couldn't read on. I have recently started writing stories of my own, a book of my own, and reading this book has become so intrinsic to that process of writing and connecting my own dots, and of understanding. I didn't go further than that first page not because it held no interest, but because in each sentence she seemed to be building an idea that resonated, acting like a crystal ball, revealing an idea that would soon be my own. We all have those books that we have loved reading and have been special to us for some reason or another, but rarely do I find one that inspires me in my own writing, in my own act of creating. 

And it seems right that it was a gift. One that just like the person who gave it to me seemed to breeze into my life. Both I am grateful for. 
On the first page she writes...

What's your story? It's all in the telling. Stories are compasses and architecture; we navigate by them, we build our sanctuaries and our prisons out of them, and to be without a story is to be lost in the vastness of a world that spreads in all directions like arctic tundra or sea ice. To love someone is to put yourself in their place we say, which is to put yourself in their story, or figure out how to tell yourself in their story.

Which means that a place is a story, and stories are geography, and empathy is first of all an act of imagination, a storyteller's art, and then a way of traveling from here to there. What is it like to be the old man silenced by a stroke, the young man facing the executioner, the woman walking across the border, the child on the roller coaster, the person you've only read about, or the one next to you in bed?

We tell ourselves stories in order to live...

The Faraway Nearby

by Rebecca Solnit

photos by : Rui Calcada Bastos


minerals & meditation // VENICE

An afternoon of Minerals & Meditation
Saturday, July 11th

A collection of hand selected minerals for sale from 2 - 4 pm. Each mineral and crystal has been worked with over the course of a month; cleansed by the Earth, Sun and the cycles of the Moon, ready for you to use as a beautiful tool in your life. Each one accompanied by a card outlining its particular helper and healing qualities. Pick something special up for yourself or as a gift. 

Breathwork Meditation from 4:30 - 5:30 pm, there is limited space for this meditation, so I ask that you kindly RSVP as soon as possible to hold your spot. This is a two part active Pranayama Breathwork meditation that is very healing. Though the breath is simple to learn, it is quite powerful and profound to experience. Clear emotional blocks and stuck energy which allows you to open up and connect to the universe, dive deeper into the self, and tap into your truth and intuition. Through quieting the mind you create space to listen with your heart.  Leave peaceful, grounded, and expansive. If you have purchased a mineral earlier in the day I will be encouraging you to use it 
during this meditation.

Come for some minerals, come for meditation... or come for both! 

At a private residence in Venice. Please email for address: laurenspencerking@gmail.com 
Also, email to RSVP to hold your spot for the meditation (limited space).


full moon // july


Thunder Moon
Wednesday, July 1st, Capricorn, 7:19 pm PST

I am a day early with this moon post, probably because it is a powerful one, one I have been feeling for days now. I have noticed it's effect on those around me, and heard many people say they already feel some old emotional stuff being brought to the surface. It feels so present that I thought it was at it's peak today, but in fact we have another cycle of night and day until it hits us with it's full magnitude. 

Around the time of a Full Moon we are more sensitive and emotional, and sometimes without awareness as to why. I always try to remember that Full Moons are about opposing energies, as the Moon and Sun are in two opposing signs. This creates a pull on us, both creating cracks and space for old things to surface, it also helps us to see things from another perspective. New Moons are much more gentle, but it's this push and pull between them that allows for growth. You need both a time of coming together and a time of pulling (falling) apart for growth. Stagnant energy does not promote growth, there needs to be motion to evolve. And part of what is being asked of us is to not resist this ebb and flow, and to learn how to keep moving with it.

Part of the reason I love paying attention to the cycles of the Moon is to remind myself that there are forces working on me. That question of, "Why is this coming up (again)?" is always explained when I stop and have awareness of what is happening in the sky. The Moons, Planets and Stars are your allies, allow them to help you evolve. Try not to resist, even if it is uncomfortable. Growth isn't comfortable. If it was, everyone would be doing it. Part of the energy of the season right now, as we are mid year, is about pausing to notice, to look harder, to listen deeper, to use those feelings coming up for healing and growth. But, we can't do that if we are go go going, or held under the current of our emotional body. Part of our responsibility to ourselves is to allow space for feelings to arise and then to figure out how to use them in our lives. How can we think of creative ways to move these emotions? This is a time where we get to choose: crisis or opportunity?

This also seems to be a time about family. I have had a family of hawks living around me this past week and a half. I have listened to their cries day and night, looked at them out my windows in the trees, studied them with my binoculars, watched the young birds learn to fly and hunt. Having them near has brought some profound energy to my home. There is a lot of wisdom and awareness that can come from observing. I think about the things coming up for me in my life around family: the dynamic I have with my dad and brother, new grief around the death of my mother, the desire for a family of my own one day, the experience I have around friends who already have their own families... and I wonder how I can look at all of this just like I have been studying and watching those hawks, inviting it all in. I believe that we choose our own families, and it is from them that we learn some of our biggest lessons. Many of the issues coming up around family are so you can clear some of that energy, and make room to restructure, reconnect, and develop a new, more authentic, definition and relationship of what family is to you. 

It seems like the rest of this month will be a continuation of "growing pains", so take some time to nurture yourself when you can. Swimming seems important. Eating good food, being physically active, and taking care of your body is key. It's also a great time to use this Capricorn energy to focus on a new project. It will help you step up to meet your responsibilities, move forward with something, and feel empowered by your inner strength and sense of direction and purpose. We are at a pivoting point, get clear on how you want to spend the rest of your year. 

Edith Dekyndt 'Slow Object 04' (1997) Video projection


miriam böhm

thinking about the work of Miriam Böhm


aa interview

Check out the interview I did for Apiece Apart!
A huge thanks to Laura and Star of AA, Leigh, Ashley and Ye Rin.


rc x rc

so good

Rachel Comey x Robbins Childs Dance Company


new moon // june


Rose Moon, Flower Moon, Strawberry Moon
Tuesday, June 16th, Gemini, 7:05 am PST

Summer!!! It's here, and it's bringing with it lots of fire energy! Summer is a time where we are more active, having fun, spending time outside, moving our bodies, laughing... There is nothing better than the beginning of Summer! Beginnings! Really take advantage of all the energy in the air right now, use that energy of fire to move your body. Fire energy is powerful but it is also fluid and flexible. Find the flow in your life. With the New Moon in the sign of Gemini it's a great time to create more balance in your life. Part of this balance might be how to have more flow and fun! I feel fun is key right now. How can you balance all the stress, busyness and work with some fun? That might mean taking a break in the middle of the day to be in the sun, call a friend and have a good laugh about something, dance to a fun song... Just keep finding things that allow you to have fun. Our energy expands itself when we are having fun, healing can come from having fun, connections can be made while having fun. No doubt that we are just more open while having fun and being joyful! You can sprinkle a little fun into any activity - it's all about how you are seeing yourself in the moment. I think it's really important to have a sense of humor about yourself, and about life. Where can you lighten up about something that feels a bit heavy? How can you laugh about it, or laugh it off? I have this wonderful Yoko Ono book and in it are all these brilliant ideas and assignments. One of them is: Dance Piece III - Take your pants off before you fight. This is exactly what I am talking about. 

It's important to create balance right now wherever you feel off. This may mean some more rest, or more movement, getting up earlier, drinking more water, letting out a loud yelp, being more social, or taking a nap. In every moment just ask yourself what you need to feel balanced. Your body holds SO much wisdom, it is telling you what it needs, you just have to listen. 

Summer is a time of abundance! How can you allow for more abundance in your life? We don't need to live in a feeling of "not enough". Not enough time, not enough ideas, not enough love, not enough connection. Each moment is full of potential for ANY THING - and every thing. We just have to allow ourselves to be open to it. 

Summer Solstice is on Sunday - the day of the year where the Sun will reach it's highest point in the sky, and the day will be our longest. Spend some time asking yourself what this moment means to you, what is this time about for you? It's a great day for reflection and being outside. Enjoy the light of the day. Midsummer has an interesting history. In many traditions it is a day of planning, celebration, a time of fertility and marriage, and honoring the Sun. 

You also get to make your New Moon wishes today! Read more about how to do that here.

HAPPY New Moon and Summer Solstice to you!

Franz Erhard Walther


full moon // june


Rose Moon, Flower Moon, Strawberry Moon
Tuesday, June 2nd, Sagittarius, 9:18 am PST

All my minerals, rocks, and fossils are laid out on the table ready for cleansing. This is the first Full Moon that I have completely felt ready for. Usually, it feels like they sneak up on me, or they just feel so intense that I am in denial, distracting myself from their presence. I am sure, as sensitive beings, you all have felt this Moon coming for days. Full Moons make us more emotional, they really pull on our emotional bodies. I think this is a result of the Moon being in one sign, this month it is Sagittarius, and the Sun being in the opposing sign, Gemini. With any thing you also get the energy of it's opposite. In the sky right now we have two strong forces, the Sun and Moon, holding opposing energies. This is bound to pull on us, creating separations, splits, and cracks in our emotional bodies for deeper emotions and feelings to emerge. Not to mention that as we are all dealing with our own emotions we are also more sensitive to the emotions around us. So, some of the things we are feeling might not even be ours. I say all of this as a reminder - Full Moons can be tough to navigate. Have compassion for yourself, and for those around you. During these next few days it would be good to adopt some small practices to help you clear yourself, ground and be present. You can do this by stopping what you are doing and taking a few deep, mindful breaths, walk outside and stand in the sun for a few moments, meditate, or I also really like dancing as a way to move energy. Anything you can do to shake off some of that tension. There is also an extra level of agitation in the air that is fundamental to both Sagittarius and Gemini, so you might be picking up on that as well if you have been feeling extra agitated lately. Try to practice compassion and patience. 

I also really feel that a lot of shifts and breakthroughs can happen right now for you with the use of your creativity. Challenge yourself to use your creativity to navigate some of the things you are facing in your life right now. Creativity is a shortcut to healing. There aren't many, but creativity is one of them. How can you out create the challenge you are facing? Write a short story, combine non- fiction with your imagination. Rearrange your home. Make a drawing with your eyes closed. Create an arrangement from flowers and plants picked on a walk. The more lighthearted energy you can have while doing these things the better. Just step out of your comfort zone a bit. If you already are an artist, find a way to counteract the way you usually approach creating. Keep it light, simple, have some fun! This pattern will help you when you come up against energy in your life that has you feeling confused, weighed down, heavy, depressed, worried, sad, etc... Use all of it as fuel for creation. This practice will help you to break old patterns, old habits that have their control over you. Allow it to open you up, to allow new energy to come into your experience. Creativity can shift your energy in an instant. 

There is this dance exercise I do where I take an old pattern or feeling, and I start expressing it in movement, and then I make a move that is the opposite of what I have been doing, and then I make a move with my body that is the opposite of that one, so on and so on... This is a way to use the body, to give it a physical experience, of interrupting an old way of being, to break a habit. Try it out, and let me know. 

Let the energy of Sagittarius take you somewhere unexpected. I love the image of the centaur shooting it's arrow at the horizon. It is looking for an adventure beyond what it can see, beyond what it knows. What do you have to let go of in order to get lost? There is freedom in the unknown. It's time to let go and discover something new that is waiting for us beyond the limits of what we know. How can you reach beyond what is comfortable? As a compass you can use the feeling of excitement and being uncomfortable. Every time you start to feel that combination you know you are on the right track. This is a time where so much is clearing in our souls, it's just falling away. And it can do it with ease if we are willing to let it be easy. Have fun, play, go on an adventure! 



fvf x sqirl

I had the honor of interviewing Jessica Koslow, chef and owner of SQIRL, for Freunde von Freunden. You can read all about her early years on the ice, her love of lemons, and how art and design influence her cooking. Also head over to the interview to check out all of Claire Cottrell's amazing photographs. Thanks to Jessica for cooking and spending the afternoon with us. And a big thanks to Frede and Timmi at FvF, and Claire! 

photos by Claire Cottrell 


from around

- I have been knee deep into reading this newly discovered blog

- it's no secret that I love On Being... some recent interviews I have been listening and relistening to:
Maria Popova, creator of Brain Pickings. Young and brilliant. The thing it got me thinking a lot about is what goes on here, on this blog. This blog started off with a model that was established by others. But, over the years I have thought a lot about what I want it to be and become. And have tried hard to create something that is about ideas and learning, a place of honest sharing and questioning, of inspiration and meaning and documenting. The internet is a young medium, and for all the gripes and criticisms we have of it - it has equal potential to be something amazing. And we, as the early shapers of it, have the opportunity to define what it is, and do something meaningful with it.   
Brene Brown talking about vulnerability - too much to talk about here and now - but this resonates deeply with me. So important. All I can say is, listen and relisten.

- my new favorite art publication, CARLA

- Green Porno - I posted on these when they first came out - but recently came across them again and they are worth a revisit. 

- I have had some good conversations about the epidemic of "busyness" and what that really means. As a culture do we wear that word as a badge of validation? What does it say about us to say that we are busy? What does it make us feel about ourselves to say we are busy - or to keep ourselves busy? Is it bad time management? A distraction from feelings? Is it that we don't understand the importance of doing nothing? Read here and here

- lots of discussion among friends and artists about the entire 2016 class of MFA candidates dropping out of USC. It's incredibly inspiring, despite the heartbreaking circumstances. Read their letter here

- two friends, women I admire and love, are featured on Apiece Apart. Cheri and Jesse. Beautiful photos by two other friends, Laure Joliet and Ye Rin Mok.

- some good food for thought - the Man Repeller talking about the relationship between clothing that is flattering and clothing that is stylish - she sums it up well by talking about her recent love affair with a new pair of denim:
 "I like — nay, love — these pants. They’re me. I know they don’t look good but I think they’re cool. They make me feel like a more interesting version of myself and that, to me, is what style is about: presenting a difficulty and attempting to unpack it or make sense of it. I can’t tell you exactly why I like them but I can sharply recall having never really cared for pants that do the things we’re supposed to expect of them: flatten our stomachs, tighten our asses, makes our legs look longer and leaner, yadi ya. Maybe that’s a function of my believing that fashion is not about what’s flattering and vice versa or maybe this is simply a matter of style. And the thing about style, like with everything else, is that if you believe in it, you have to be willing to fight for it."
I think about this same idea when I think about culture (it's standards of beauty) and when I think about art - and the long relationship we have had with beauty and goodness. It surprises me still how many people equate beauty with goodness.  

unknown, marble factory, ancient Egyptian fish net sinker, Brancusi


new moon // may


Planting Moon
Sunday, May 17th, Taurus, 9:13 pm PST

We are fully in Spring! With both the Sun and Moon in Taurus the skies are aligned for us to enjoy the pleasures of life. It's a time to drop into your body more, to ground yourself using all of your senses to experience and explore more of life. Spring brings with it new energy, as things blossom right before us. But, it is not a time of starting new things (especially not with Mercury in retrograde until June 11th), but instead a time to enjoy the new things that are happening around us (and inside of us); a time to enjoy the things we have cultivated over the past months (maybe even years). The universe is designed on the principals of balance, and this is a time of slowing down. This is a time to observe. If you are someone that finds it difficult to slow down or rest the universe will help you out with that. If you are resisting this natural energy don't be surprised if Mercury has a hand in helping you to stop what you are doing (ie - computer crashing, car troubles, delays in progress on projects). It is a good reminder for us all that despite what we think, we can not control everything. It's a time of surrendering. It will be a time that will challenge you to embrace whatever is happening around you, even it's not what you were planning. If it seems like a derailment, challenge yourself to see it as a gift, an opportunity. 

There is also a lot of confused energy in the air right now, especially with new and unfamiliar energies all around. It is important to take some space to get clear. Maybe you are feeling a natural pull to spend more time alone, focus on your meditation practice, dive deeper into a creative project, spend more time in nature... Whatever it is it will be a tool for you right now to help you clear away some of the distraction that comes with confusion. Anything you can do right now to connect deeper to your true self do it. Really slow down and do what you are called to do, but do it with intention and awareness. I feel there are some deep lessons and wisdom waiting for you in the silence.

To reflect on the past few weeks - I just wanted to mention something that has been coming up for me in my awareness. It seems that the past year (or two) has been a time of deep personal work. We were facing so much of ourselves: old wounds and patterns, loss and letting go. A true examining of who we are and a really big dose of the lessons we have to overcome in this life in order to grow. And growth comes out of difficulty. But there seems to be a shift this year, especially in the past few weeks, where it's not so much us facing ourselves, but us being confronted with who we are in relation to the other, the outer world. I have noticed a lot of difficult lessons being presented to those around me (and myself) that have to do with relationships, work, and family. I'm not sure what more to say about it - other than to say I am aware of it, and in my awareness I honor that process in myself and in you. I can't give you answers about it, tell you how exactly you need to navigate it, or what the outcome will be. But, I always feel for myself that having a greater understanding that something bigger is happening really helps me move through whatever I am going through. It's a challenging time, we are being asked to surrender and to hold multiple truths. It's not easy.

I almost forgot that with this New Moon we have the opportunity to do some wishing! I think I forgot because so much of the energy right now feels like it is about just being. Maybe take this into consideration while you are writing your wishes. You are allowed ten wishes maximum, they must be hand written on paper and made within the first 24 hours of the exact time of the New Moon. You can read more information here.

Willem de Rooij



Paul Outerbridge



SQIRL has an amazing new website

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full moon // may


Planting Moon
Sunday, May 3rd, Scorpio, 8:42 pm PST

A friend this morning asked me if I read anything to help me write these posts. Occasionally I do, to learn about and hone in on any astrological alignment that seems important. But for the most part, no. I just sit down with my computer and reflect and feel into what I have been going through recently. I also pay attention to conversations I have had with people and close friends to see if I can pick up on a through line that connects us all. Something always stands out, as a conformation for what I have been feeling myself. Writing these posts for the past 3 years has been such a practice in trusting myself. And what I have found is that when I really listen to what's going on with me and just write about that, more often than not it's a reflection of what is happening around me, what you are facing too. 

I mention this for a few reasons. The most important one as a reminder that you are not alone. Given what is going on in my own life and the personal conversations I have had with those closest to me this past week this is no doubt a very difficult time. I would bet money that everyone of you is facing some major challenge in your life right now - I want you to know you are not alone. We are in a time where our souls are choosing to heal it's most profound wounds, and it is attracting experiences right now in order to do that. Wow, major healing! Sounds great, right? So why does it feel so difficult? Because healing and growth are challenging and sometimes painful. It's not an easy thing to do, and it takes a brave soul to accept that challenge. As you go through this time have the awareness in your heart that whatever you are facing in your life is in the name of deep healing on a soul level. I always say that healing and growth are not easy, if they were, everyone would be doing it. 

This is a profound time of healing which means facing some painful stuff about ourselves and our deepest wounds which bring up lots of sadness and pain, and it's pushing us to a place of having to really surrender and let go. Not our natural response when we are afraid or in pain. But that is what we must learn to do in this moment. Let go. It isn't a time of creating something new. It is a time of surrendering what is no longer needed. What must you surrender in yourself in order to heal?

And on top of this challenging time in our own personal histories we have this very intense Full Moon in Scorpio. Scorpio energy is nothing if not intense. The light of this moon is shining deep into our souls, revealing and bringing to the surface the darkest truths. Scorpio energy is all about seeking the truth, it has no judgment about if it is beautiful or ugly or uncomfortable, truth is truth and it wants to reveal it to transform it. The positive part in this process is that whatever is coming up for you is exactly what you must heal. It's not a mystery, it's right there in front of you. So, just know if you are in a place where you feel like things are on the verge of falling apart, crumbling all around you, if you are feeling like you can't take it any more, want to give up then - you are in the right place. 

The good thing is that if we can learn to surrender to whatever experience we are facing we can find grace to guide us through. There isn't a lot choice right now on our part - our souls have decided and are setting the course, we just have to trust and be guided by them. The other thing is that if we can learn to love and accept our wounds then we are learning to be more human. How can we help the wounded without first learning to accept the wounds within ourselves? It makes us more compassionate towards ourselves and others. Cultivate a deep compassionate heart right now, for yourself and those around you. 

You are not alone. 

Georgia O'Keeffe