8.12.2018

new moon / august







NEW MOON





Grain Moon
Saturday, August 11th, Leo, 2:57 am PST

This is a Super New Moon, with a partial solar eclipse, the last eclipse of the three. So many planets are still in retrograde and with these eclipses in the mix it really has been an intense time. New Moons are always a chance for new energies, and new beginnings. And eclipses are times of breaking away things to reveal something new, and more true. Plus with the added push by all the retrogrades, all of this combined is creating a time where we are being asked to take a hard look at ourselves, take responsibility and make some changes. 

Take a closer look at whatever is feeling relentless in your life, I guarantee that is the place where you are being asked to show up in a different way.

This new moon is in the sign of Leo, ruled by the heart! The heart of the lion! It's a good time to look at places and times when you are not including your heart. When I say the heart, I don't mean your wounds, this isn't a time where you should be including your experience of wanting to be soothed (by another. I am talking to YOU women!). Well, actually, you should be keeping an eye on those urges so as not to indulge them, but rather to own them and tend to them yourself instead of making them someone else's responsibility. But, I am really talking about the power of the heart, the duality of the passion and receptivity that the heart holds. It's the female in you that knows how to hold it all, and hold the duality of life.

These 7 planets in retrograde are rough, but they are doing us a favor. Wherever they are pushing you to grow, be uncomfortable, take responsibility, use the fire and courage of the Leo lion heart to help you. We all need as much courage as we can get right now. Tune into that. Hold it all. Include your heart. And start making those leaps you are being pushed to make. That is when you will have the breakthroughs. It's in action that breakthroughs come.








Jaromir Novotny, Kolumba

7.27.2018

full moon / july









FULL MOON





Thunder Moon
Thursday, July 27, Aquarius, 1:20 pm PST

Full Moon with a Lunar Eclipse
Mercury, Mars, Saturn, Neptune, Pluto, Chiron all in retrograde. 

This moon's message is very clear.
Where are you ready to take responsibility?








photo by me for Fields of Study

7.25.2018

as above, so below









“As above, so below.” I see this phrase used a lot these days. I studied the philosophy, texts and writings of hermeticism and alchemy while getting my MFA, and I, like many people, resonated with this concept when I first read it. These days I see it used in a way that gets under my skin. How it is being used is to only tell half the story of what it actually means. 

The original quote comes from “The Emerald Tablet of Hermes Trismegistus”, "That which is Below corresponds to that which is Above, and that which is Above corresponds to that which is Below, to accomplish the miracle of the One Thing.” This macro / micro idea related so much to my art at the time. And what bothers me about how people use it is exactly how I used to see it then, so I get it. But since then I have done lots of work on a personal level around the shadow, and because of this I have come to understand its full meaning.

These days I see this quote being used all the time to talk about the light, the beautiful, the wonder of the universe. The stars we see are the stars within us. Although it is a beautiful concept (and it truly is), if we are to look at it in relation to the universe then we must include the wholeness of the universe, for the universe also holds darkness equal to the light. 

This is not a concept to only hold up to things that become a reflection of our goodness, our virtues, or what we find magical and expansive. It isn’t a term to be used in one instance and not others. If we are to truly embody this idea then we also must apply it to what is dark, mostly what we judge and think we are not. Think about all the instances where you would not want to use this idea as a means of reflection of who you are. THOSE are the places you should be applying it most. 

Though you might not be a serial killer, at least I hope you aren’t, there is still darkness in you, ways your shadow controls you, disconnects you, cons you, uses you and maybe uses others. The shadow that is so apparent in the world right now is easy to spot, but we all have a shadow within us that requires a more discerning eye to see. What we see men doing to women most people do to their own internal female. It’s the shadow, internal and external. It’s the same. What is happening externally IS a reflection of what is happening internally. But it is the acceptance of the shadow, understanding of it, respect for it, and a mastery over it that allows us to transform it, it is what gives us our wholeness, and it is only then that we can truly embody the fullness of this idea. Only then do we fully become the “One Thing.”







Lee Ufan , Relatum – The Arch of Versailles, 2014

7.13.2018

new moon / july








NEW MOON





Thunder Moon
Thursday, July 12th, Cancer, 7:47 pm PST

We are in eclipse season. A lunar, solar, lunar from now until August 11th. The powerful energy of these eclipses will be pulling us through the landscape of our souls - into the deep crevasses, the rocky cliffs, the vast waters, and soothing skies. It's a time of being broken open and healing. With this moon we get the nurturing, water, female energy of Cancer. With this new moon partial lunar eclipse the Sun (male) moves in between us and the Moon (female), asking us to reexamine what the female is. 

In our culture, and especially these days in the healing / wellness community, there is a lot of talk about the female, of people wanting to be more in their feminine energy. The way it is portrayed, understood, and embodied is actually more of the Divine Masculine. It is light, universal love, soft, nurturing, forgiving... If you think about it, that is more the energy of God (not in a religious way). It's the energy of Spirit, which is beautiful! But not the female.

Right now, most people who think they are getting in touch with their Divine Feminine are actually getting in touch and strengthening their Divine Masculine (men as well, because everyone is made of both energies no matter your gender). With this new moon in Cancer and with the partial lunar eclipse it is bringing up where you confuse the two. It is asking you to sort out and re identify the Divine Masculine and Feminine within you. This might be showing up in your external life, as well as your internal relationship to yourself. Everyone is different, so everyone will have a different relationship with this. It is up to you to look beyond the surface to really see what is what. The eclipse is helping with this, and making it more confusing, so look to the places you are confused as sites and situations to examine. You can ask yourself, What is my external life trying to reveal to me about my misunderstanding of the Divine Masculine and Feminine? Pay particular attention in the following days.

Your inner female wants to be claimed. She wants her own voice! She wants to be seen.

The task right now is about uncovering where your misconception lies, before she reveals to you  more of who she truly is round the time of the next eclipse.






photo by Paul Outerbridge Jr.

6.26.2018

full moon / june







FULL MOON




Rose Moon
Wednesday, June 27th, Capricorn, 9:52 pm PST

I am on my annual summer road trip through the southwest, looking for rocks and minerals, relaxing, thinking, reading, swimming, sunning. I feel incredibly lucky to have found my way to a lavender farm, and was walking in the fields at sunset tonight, watching the sky grow darker and moon grow brighter, talking to my best friend about control and surrender.

On the road I don't bring music, or books on tape, but I do do a lot of thinking while driving. I do a lot of thinking in my dreams too, I found a note on my phone this morning that I wrote to myself at 4:34 am, all it says is "chakra sweatshirts". You'll be able to find them in the shop as soon as I can figure out what that is. But, back to the point. While driving through the painted desert yesterday afternoon, passing all the trading posts and truck stops, I thought a lot about how controlled my life is. All the ways I control myself, my energy, my experience, peoples experience of me, etc...  Even when I think I am not controlling, I am. And the thing is, we all control so much of ourselves. In a way everything about us is controlled. Controlled by patterns we don't even know are there. And even if you do know they are there there are times when you find yourself in them at the snap of a finger.

How do you get out of it?

"You have to surrender", my wise friend said, to me tonight.
"Ugh, I know, and my mind plays tricks on me, saying that if I surrender to it it will just get worse. That the controlling / pattern will run wild! Get bigger!"
But, he's right. It's time to surrender.
Surrendering doesn't mean giving into it, or indulging it.
When we stop controlling, and instead surrender, that is when something NEW can happen.
When we control we can not shift things.
This is where our mind can not understand. We so badly want to change things, but change doesn't come from controlling. It comes from surrendering. We can not determine how things will go, or the outcome. We have to surrender to the pattern to walk through it to the other side, in which we have NO idea what will be waiting for us. That's the good news (and the scary part).

So that's where we are.

I urge you to return to the last post about Pluto. Those lessons are still very much running the show. And if you are avoiding where your soul is pointing it's gonna get ugly. Our souls are not interested in making things comfortable and nice for us. They want growth. And they will do everything in their power to ensure this happens. It's unavoidable. So the more you resist it, try to get out of it, put it off, make excuses, don't take responsibility for it, the worse it's going to get for you until you have no choice. Look at what your lesson with Pluto is from that last post. I guarantee this is what is right in your face right now. Don't avoid it. Don't control it. Surrender to it. Drop down into it and you will start to feel an energy guiding you through it.







Africa - A Zangbeto mask whirls and rises high before a village audience. 
Atakora Plateau, Benin

6.12.2018

shop update








NEW


SHOP update

A small collection of special mineral specimens. 
And a new collection of mineral sprays. 








new moon / june








NEW MOON






Rose / Strawberry Moon
Wednesday, June 13th, Gemini, 12:43 pm PST

The only thing pleasant about this moon is its name. Actually, that's not true, it's not the moon that is making things difficult, it the energy and lessons of Pluto that are dominating our lives right now. As I thought about this New Moon post it seemed more important to focus on Pluto than on the moon. So the post for this moon cycle will be directing you to look up what house Pluto is in in your natal chart. Look for the Pluto symbol, and then look to see which house it is in, otherwise known as which section of the pie, it will have a number and that's how you know which house it is (Astrology 101). And then go to this site to read about Plutos lesson in that house. It seems everyone is facing something very specific these last few weeks that relates to Pluto.

I hope this helps shed some light and bring some clarity.








photo by me, with a piece of smokey quartz

5.29.2018

full moon / may







FULL MOON





Flower Moon
Tuesday, May 29, Sagittarius, 7:19 am PST

Truth seeking.
Becoming.

I really feel the energy of Spring. I feel myself like the little seed that was planted months ago and laid dormant through the Winter season, gathering strength and knowledge. And since then have been on a journey of growth, fighting every step of the way to be in the flow, to grow and navigate my way through the soil to break the surface of the earth. And now the reward is feeling the nurturing energy of the Sun and blossoming.

This Full Moon in Sagittarius is about integration. It is about taking what you have been through, the challenges and hardships of the past few months, and integrating them into the wisdom and understanding of life that will help you blossom into more of who you are. With this Full Moon we can pause and see the journey we have been on, how it has shaped us and landed us where we are (for better or worse). We look around and within and take in what we know to be true.

This is a time of growth, expansion, understanding, integration, truth and becoming.

Jupiter is the ruler of this Full Moon, and it is retrograding in the sign of Scorpio, so it is helping us to dive in and churn up deeper truths to examine and integrate. They feel like bite sized dives, so it won't be too overwhelming for your system. And it also means that it will be easier to integrate, a little at a time. So be aware of what moments of truth hit you, realizations, ah-ha moments, experiences that touch you and feel meaningful. On the surface these seem small but are actually very important right now. Be extra aware and grateful for them. Slow down and take in everything that is happening within you and around you.

It is a time to feel the power of gentleness, surrendering, joy, and truth.







painting unknown

5.15.2018

new moon / may







NEW MOON





Planting Moon
Tuesday, May 15th, Taurus, 4:47 am PST

With New Moons we get a pause, a moment where there is an opening, a gift of reprieve. This is a time where what we have been avoiding is RIGHT in our face - unavoidable and inescapable. But with this New Moon we get an opening of energy that comes in to support us in all the big shifts and changes that are happening. Yes, it is a very hard time, but it is also a magical time.

I will share, that personally, I feel big shifts trying to happen. Emphasis on the word trying, or rather they are happening within me and I am becoming acutely aware of the ways I am trying to stay in the old. This could be part of my fixed Scorpio nature, always wanting something to overcome, some challenge to be up against, some energy to transform. In a way it's terrifying to not have something to overcome and transform, and yet that is the place I feel I am being pushed to be in. A place where there is ease, calm, support, confidence in my bodies ability to handle things, health, partnership, abundance... being. And oh boy! Do I feel myself fighting it, even though it's everything I have been fighting to have! This is the ironic and hard part about where I feel like we are right now. We are actually getting pushed into a place where we have worked so hard to be and we are resisting it and fighting it every step of the way.

With this New Moon in Taurus and Uranus moving to the sign of Taurus (for the next seven years) we are being pushed to realign ourselves into some more positive energy and positive values. But what I see happening is we are being faced with all of our issues and all the ways we hang on, stay comfortable in the known (even if those ways are more difficult). We have an attachment to them and right now we don't want to let go! So while we are facing some of our deepest issues and patterns, with this New Moon we are also being given messages and signs about the way through. It's like finding a secret doorway in a room where you have been keeping yourself trapped. This New Moon is guiding all of us to find that secret door that we didn't know was there. It's so important to keep your eyes, ears, hearts, bodies open right now. Pay attention to things you see in repetition, people you keep running into, dreams you keep having, animals that keep showing up... anything where you notice a sequence. I am a big believer in the message of threes. The first time you encounter something/one, the second time could be a coincidence, but the third is a message not to be ignored. Follow these things right now - they are here to guide you through your big lessons and allow you to settle into and be open to what is shifting inside you. 

Try to think about the fact that you are the room, the secret door AND the key. 


Taurus energy is all about value, beauty, pleasure. Be sure to partake in things that stimulate your senses, that feel sensual and nurturing. In fact, these kinds of things just might be the key to opening that secret door. Just make sure that this energy isn't indulgent or feeding the old patterns and issues, but instead is a way through, is full of healing, and is supporting the new place you are being pushed to step into. And be sure you aren't using the energy of Taurus to escape the difficulty. You will be able to feel it - is it keeping you in the old, are you using it to escape, OR is it leading you through something into something new?

What would it be like to not react to our issues from our ego, from the known, from our minds wanting to figure it out, from fear... but instead to face our issues from a place of openness, curiosity, trusting, surrendering to the universe to be guided through that energy?

Keep me posted. 







Lesley Vance ~ Untitled, 2011

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Q&A - Answering your questions about breathwork, self growth, creativity and minerals. In this episode I talk about how I came to breathwork, breathwork and manifestation, “who’s doing the answering”, being in the unknown, the difference between being inspired and copying, nurturing your creative voice, how minerals work, and minerals for the bath. 

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Before the podcast I did a live feed on Instagram with a few books I am reading that I would recommend. 
If you missed it, or want to reference them, here they are.

She: Understanding Feminine Psychology 
by Robert A. Johnson

The Enneagram: Understanding Yourself and the Others In Your Life 
by Helen Palmer 

Your Soul's Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born 
by Robert Schwartz 

Medical Medium Life-Changing Foods 
by Anthony William

The Secret Lives of Color 
by Kassia St Clair 

Reflections: Van Eyck and the Pre-Raphaelites 
by Alison Smith 

Mystical Symbolism: The Salon de la Rose+Croix in Paris, 1892–1897 
by Vivien Greene and Jean-David Jumeau-Lafond






Isamu Noguchi, "Jack in the Box", 1984