4.25.2011

changes





{sigh}
So many big changes are happening in my life right now. 


Over the weekend I graduated!


I am still trying to catch my breath and process the events of the last few days, even of the last few years. I have worked harder than I ever could have imagined during school. But it was a labor of love, as I have known since I was about two that I am an artist. And have spent my whole life since working up to this day. I am finally able to face the rest of my life, and look ahead at all the amazing possibilities in front of me. Excited about what I will experience and what lies ahead. And trying to keep in mind that I can create the kind of life I want to live, and a world I want to be in.

And at the same time there is nothing more difficult than facing changes you can not control, and learning to accept the inevitable. The end of school has been a hard one for me to accept. I know for a while it will be a huge loss in my life. Because I love it so much; it has shaped who I am in such a huge way, and has taught me so many things about what I am capable of. Not only that, but I feel grateful to leave with a group of peers that I respect. There is something really special about the kind of time that happens when you are in school, you are kind of in a bubble with these people. And are challenged in such a huge way, that happens daily. Not only do you try to push yourself, but you are often pushed and tested by others. So much happens in such a concentrated amount of time. There is no other experience like it.

In some ways I feel a little lonely in the world right now, on my own finally, and know it will take me a bit to get settled and find a new routine and a place for myself. And at the same time, I am so excited with all the new freedom I have!


I am so grateful for all the experiences I had during school. A lot of personal loss happened during that time, and I am proud to have been able to deal with it all, embrace it, and incorporate it into all aspects of my life, including school. I am grateful for all the students who taught me lessons every day and the teachers who believed in me and spent time and energy making me a better artist. I am grateful for all the support and love from my friends and family. Graduate school is not easy, it demands that you give everything of yourself, and everything else kind of takes a back seat to it, and I am grateful and thankful for everyone who stuck by me, and let me lean on them.
And most of all, I can say, I am really proud of myself.


to new beginnings

watch out world!




here I come!









7 comments:

  1. CONGRATS! What a HUGE accomplishment! Change is always hard but always leads to greatness. I can't wait to see how the next chapter of your life unfolds, I only see the most wonderful things in store for you my dear! To new beginnings!!! xoxo

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  2. What a beautiful entry, Lauren. You honor us with your candor and honesty.
    Your future will be so bright!!!.... like florescent pink or orange, or like the light that refracts off a crystal ;)
    xoxo K

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  3. I am beyond thrilled for you. Congrats to you on such a huge accomplishment and cheers to all your future adventures!!! xx, J

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  4. Congratulations Lauren!!! You are such a talent and I can't wait to see what amazing things your future holds!

    Jessie xx

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  5. thanks ladies!
    it means so much to me!

    xoxo

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