12.28.2012

full moon // december









FULL MOON



Night Long Moon
Friday, December 28th, 2:21 am PST

This is the last Full Moon of 2012. There is no better time for letting go of the past and looking to what lies ahead, especially with the wind of 12/21/12 at your back. Take some time to shift your gaze to your future. With your new moon wishes in mind, and the things you let go of on the 21st, use your imagination to create the future you want for yourself and those you love. Cultivate this image in your minds eye and in your heart. Each one of us has the power of creation. Now until the 1st is the perfect opportunity to plant some seeds. Get your garden ready to grow. Do the things you need to get done to allow movement towards your goals. This season is a good one for going inward and tackling the inner personal work you need to be doing. This is also a really powerful time for wishing. Spend some quality time on your own and focus on where you want to be going, what you want for yourself, and the dream you have for the world you wish to see.

Full Moons hold the energy of reflection (as they are a literal reflection of the Sun's light). Let the light be your guide to look within, let it reflect to you the truth of where you are, and let it show you the path you need to take to get to where you wish to be. 

Because this Full Moon is in the sign of Cancer, you and those around you may be feeling extra emotional. Emotions are stirred by Full Moons, but given that this one is in Cancer expect lots of emotions to be coming to the surface. Take the time to honor them, what ever they may be. And be extra loving and patient with yourself and others during this time. 







12.27.2012

ospedale









Irving Penn, New York, 1980.


12.21.2012

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Happy Winter Solstice!


Today is a very important day, not only does it mark the beginning of winter, and is a day that holds the most darkness, but it is also the day in the Mayan calender where we end the age of separation. This is the end of thousands and thousands of years, and a return to a time of union and wholeness. A time of relationships. 

Take a moment today, before midnight to do a special meditation and ritual. Light a candle, create a sacred space, an alter, gather the things that you hold as sacred or meaningful... even if it is just one thing. Sit down in this space, feel the air, listen to the sounds, notice the light, the smell, the taste in your mouth... and imagine an ancient time when your soul knew wholeness and union. Your soul has a memory of this time, use your imagination to go here, ask it to take you back thousands of years. Ask yourself what part of your personality are you willing to let go of to be in wholeness again. Trust your intuition, it is never wrong. Ask yourself again, what is another aspect of your personality that you are willing to let go of to live in wholeness once again. And ask if there is a third. Make a commitment to yourself starting today to go forth in your life with the intention of living in wholeness and union from with in. Ask the magic of the universe and nature to support you in doing this. Ask for the awareness to catch yourself when you are coming from any of the places you just listed for yourself, and to make the conscious choice to not come from these places. Say this out loud in your own words. Write these things down on a piece of paper. Fold it up, and if you can, burn it. If not tear it up and bury it in the ground. 
This is a very important time of transition, not only for this lifetime but for all of those that have yet to come.






Lechuguilla Cave

12.16.2012

12/16/2008












It has been four years since my mum passed away. 
Not a day goes by where I don't think of her and miss her. 
Even now, I still have moments where I pick up the phone to call her. 

Today I celebrate her.
I celebrate her heart, as it was the most giving I have ever known. I celebrate her warm and loving nature, her talent and creativity, her kindness, her integrity, her style, her willingness to always go above and beyond for anyone she loved, her natural beauty on the inside and out, her adorable sense of humor, and her bravery. Today I will remember and hold close to my heart all the times that I can remember with her; times we would laugh ourselves silly, times that she took care of me and then the times I took care of her. I will remember all the ways she was amazing. She taught me what it is to love unconditionally. I am so grateful for every moment I got to spend with her, each one I hold in my heart. She was integral in shaping who I am today. Even in her passing, she gave me one of the two greatest gifts of my life. Holding her hand in that moment and being witness to her was the most profound, beautiful and magical experience of my life. 

Today I celebrate her, who she was in her life, and all the ways she lives on in me.  









12.13.2012

new moon // december









NEW MOON





Long Night Moon
Thursday, December 13th, 12:42 am PST

This is the last New Moon of the year, and just a week before the major transitioning point of Winter Solstice. This is a time for focusing on what we have and what we want in our lives. And let go of thoughts where we are focusing on what we don't have, what has been lost, or what once was (this last one is very hard for me). Try to really be clear about what you want to call in to your life. And most of all, cultivate and nurture that part of your heart that trusts that magical things are coming your way. New Moons are important, because they carry the energy of forgiving the past and starting anew with renewed commitment. They are all about new beginnings. 


This is a difficult time of year for a lot of people, but something about this year seems particularly hard and unforgiving. So much so that to write about it is difficult for me, I feel at a loss to describe the feeling in me and around me. And maybe I don't have to describe it, but only acknowledge it. And acknowledge it to you, if you are like me and going through a really difficult time, know you are not alone. This is something I need reminding of myself. I have a good friend who has been so supportive and he tells me, "some days, all you have to do is hang on, it's all you can do, and that is enough." 


Now on to the part I really need right now... wishing!
As the moon is in Sagittarius it is a great time to make wishes about traveling to places you have always wanted to go, or places in which you would like to be more optimistic in your life. You are allowed ten wishes, maximum. And all your wishes must be hand written on paper. The best time to wish is eight hours after the exact time of the New Moon, but within the first 48 will do. And don't forget to share your wishes with someone you love (to me this is the most important ingredient).

Also, use this time to reflect. Before you write your wishes take a moment and feel all the things that make winter magical: the stillness, the silence of snowfall, the darkness of the day, the peaceful feeling even with the harshness of the cold, the starkness of the trees that have been exposed and who have lost their leaves, ready to be reborn in the coming season. Even nature is slowing down, reflecting, gathering strength to face a new beginning, knowing that Spring is coming it's way. 



Happy wishing to you all!












12.12.2012

book stand @ tomboy











My lovely friend Claire has a collection of her amazing books at Tomboy.
There is a little party to celebrate on Friday! 
(   there is also a little custom Book Stand sign by me!   )
I already swooped up one of Unified Fields limited edition tote bags. They have been hand dyed in the Atlantic Ocean... I mean... it just doesn't get any better than that!

This is just the beginning of wonderful things to come from Book Stand!
I hope to see you there! 



Also, check out the site... lots of great books... anyone would be lucky to receive one of these special books this holiday season. 





holiday cards












Stop into Cookbook to pick up a hand printed holiday card made by... you guessed it... me!
I just delivered them yesterday, grab one while they last. 

Also, peak in their No.2 shop. It is full of perfectly curated, beautiful holiday gifts. 


Cookbook
1549 Echo Park Ave.




12.10.2012

indian summer - fall


I thought I would share some photos from late summer through fall. 
I have a cold, and have been in bed for two days... gives me some time to play catch up. 




Once a month for the past seven months I have been going home to IL to clean and clear out and work on our family home. It is finally on the market. It was so much work, but ultimately a labor of love. On the left is the road that leads to our neighborhood. On the right is our lake, that has been in our family for over 100 years. 




Among my many tasks at home, the biggest was cleaning out my mum's silversmithing studio. Not a glamours job as it was a mess. But, I did get to spend an afternoon carefully boxing up all her gemstones. 




More packing and cleaning out the garage.




In August one of my dearest friends got married in Ojai! It was such an amazing day full of so much love! Remember this invite I worked on? And check out photos of the beautiful flowers done by the talented Lili. 
Congrats C & S!



At the reception. Lili and I having some laughs around the bonfire. The lovely Lili with her man, Elija. 




Afternoon walk on my street. And weekly goodies from Cookbook




More flora and fauna. I love the pink afternoon light!




I have been bonkers for making jam! I can't seem to make enough of it. Here are two special jars. And Ava, having a rest with her monkey. She has a hard life.




Lots of studio time. Working on a new series of paintings of the woods at night. Here is one of the panels, working on it to get it dark dark dark which takes a very long time. On the right, afternoon studio light on an older, weird piece from school.




The sweetest birthday dinner ever with Lili at Cortez (my favorite place and my favorite cake, Basque Cake, it's what my dreams are made of). The most adorable birthday flower crown made by my magical friend Jane Anne. 




Staying cozy as winter approaches. Writing thank you notes with some homemade yogi tea with homemade almond milk. On the right, beautiful flowers at dusk from Lili.




I was lucky enough to spend Thanksgiving in Ojai with a friend and her amazing family. On the left, feeding one of my favorite little ladies, Clementine. On the right, taken on a morning run. 



Picking persimmons (my favorite) in their orchards. 




Dominique's dolmen. A drawing I just finished for a friend. 




Venice in the morning. 







12.08.2012

i will












I'd stand in the shadows of your heart and tell you I'm not afraid of your dark.




12.04.2012

11.30.2012

spencer studio news








I am super excited to share that three Spencer Studio Vintage Photograph Drawings are in the Etsy Holiday Pop-up Shop in SoHo! I am so thrilled (and flattered) to be among such great shops that have been chosen, and with such amazing curators like Waris, Ilana Smithkin, Tavi Gevinson and Martha Stewart.
The shop opened yesterday and will be up until the 8th of December. If you live in New York be sure to check it out. And they have a great line up of workshops! More information here

There are no more vintage photograph drawings in the Spencer Studio shop. But I am taking custom orders. More will arrive Spring 2013.



ALSO



Last year, I did some work for the lovely Alyson, who contacted me wanting to update the look of her cute blog, Unruly Things. Well, a year in the making and it is finally up!! Head over to check it out. Watercolored ink drop, masking tape, tags for gift guides, and scroll all the way down to the bottom to see an antique drawer pull... all done by yours truly. 








and... sorry for the lack of posts. i've been going through some things, taking it moment by moment, day by day. i will be back soon. i promise. 



11.28.2012

full moon & lunar eclipse // november






FULL MOON




Wednesday, November 28th, Gemini, 6:49 am PST

This is a very powerful full moon and a marker for deep change. We are still in a time to make wishes with the help of the moon for what we want in our lives, it is a great time for manifestation. This moon also launches us into the final stretch of preparation before the Winter Solstice on December 21st. This is a big time to let go, anything you have been holding on to, now is the time to let it go and ready yourself for a new phase, it is one of the biggest energetic shifts we will get in our lifetime. Use this time to your advantage, and move into the next phase ready with excitement and an open heart. 

Always around full moons, you and others around you may be more emotional than usual. This time also typically brings up issues around communication and feeling like you or someone around you is "not being heard." Be mindful of that and try to have patients and be clear. It's also important that you take any responsibility for your creations on all levels in your life: physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. Remember, YOU create your life. Also process any unresolved guilt or resentment you may be holding on to. Time to let it go. Use the image of the moon to help you let go of anything you don't need anymore: imagine it every day as it lets go of more and more light, until it is dark, and then fills itself up again with new light. 


In some ways, this might be the most difficult week of the year. It sure already has been for me, the last few weeks actually. But this is the time when we are asked to dive deep with in ourselves. So much is shifting with in us, and around us. Really work hard these next few weeks to let go. Challenge yourself to take a leap, take a risk. I promise you you will be rewarded. The bigger the risk, the bigger the reward. I know it is petrifying to do this, but you are being supported. Be courageous! 
This is a time of great transformation. 








11.19.2012

from around















- I love relatively unknown historical art movements... ones that are based on a specific and uncommon skill or surprising material. Tinsel paintings at the American Folk Art Museum. 

- Are you smart enough for gifted kindergarten? Find out here. I'm happy to say I am 100% ready, but I think I only did well because the test was visual... if math or spelling were involved, forget it. 

- Super interesting, The Island Where People Forget to Die.

- A great little piece about Theosophy. I'm secretly, or not-so-secretly now, interested in theosophy and the occult. 

- For my birthday I gifted myself a Past Life reading that was life changing! It was beyond! Anyway, during it I had a suspicion confirmed, that in a past life I was a midwife. So, needless to say I am looking forward to seeing this

- A fascinating study about why children hide by covering their eyes. This part I found most interesting:
In both studies so far, when the children thought they were invisible by virtue of their eyes being covered, they nonetheless agreed that their head and their body were visible. They seemed to be making a distinction between their "self" that was hidden, and their body, which was still visible. Taken together with the fact that it was the concealment of the eyes that seemed to be the crucial factor for feeling hidden, the researchers wondered if their invisibility beliefs were based around the idea that there must be eye contact between two people - a meeting of gazes - for them to see each other (or at least, to see their "selves").
"... it would seem that children apply the principle of joint attention to the self and assume that for somebody to be perceived, experience must be shared and mutually known to be shared, as it is when two pairs of eyes meet," the researchers said.







Sven Lukin, Jenni Rope, AndrĂ© Durst, 1939

11.13.2012

new moon - solar eclipse // november








NEW MOON

solar eclipse



Beaver Moon
Tuesday, November 13th, Scorpio, 2:08pm, PST

I have never known Scorpio energy to be as intense as it has been the last two weeks. Whatever energy I felt on the horizon around the last Full Moon has just taken over and intensified since then. I am a Scorpio and I am most at home in it's energy; the more intense the better for me. I love it's darkness, it calls in the mysteries of life: transformation, death, rebirth, sex, intimacy, union with something greater than ourselves. In a way I feel this time for me has been all about learning that my power lies in transformation; my ability to transform the dark, to embrace loss and see it as a chance to create something new. So, right now I am getting lots of profound awareness and lessons around this, I feel I am being reborn (it is quite painful but also amazing). And so so many people in my life are also facing very intense and profound losses: the loss of a relationship, the loss of a father, the loss of a child, the loss of an idea of what you thought your future would be, the difficulty of breaking addictions... We are all being challenged right now. We all experience loss and pain in our lives, but we all have the power to transform it; to face it, to see the truth, to choose to walk through it, despite the pain and heartache, to claim more of our souls, our power, our purpose. It is important during this intense time to have patients, to empower and feed your soul what it needs to walk through life with fire. 

This is one of the most monumental transitional times ever experienced on the planet. Now through 2015 we will be asked to step up and be as fully aware and responsible to our own truth as we can be. Stay grounded and use this energy to transform your life. The following two weeks is especially an important and powerful time for manifestation. It is so very important that we use our energy to only focus on what we want, and desire to create in our life. 

It is a perfect time to make your new wishes. And wish wisely. These wishes are very important and hold a lot of weight and power. Mercury is also in retrograde, so be sure to really check in with how you feel about what you are wishing for. You can use the energy of Scorpio and make wishes about new beginnings, in relationships, in things that you are passionate about. This New Moon in Scorpio combined with the Solar Eclipse make is such a powerful time!

Don't forget, your wishes must be hand written on paper. Ten wishes maximum. The most potent and powerful time for wishing is within the first eight hours after the beginning of the New Moon, but within the first 48 will work. Also, be sure to share your wishes with someone you love and trust, having a witness to them will give them more power. 


Happy Wishing!








11.12.2012

faking it






















Leap into the Void by Yves Kline
The Other Series (after Man Ray) by Kathy Grove
Room with an Eye by Maurice Tabard 
She Never Told Her Love by Henry Peach Robinson


As someone who does not own or use photoshop I appreciate this show at The Met on many levels. I mean, what did people do before photoshop?! This is what!!! Check out all of these amazing photographs. I also have a love and fascination with early spirit photography, some good examples can be seen in the show.
And, I remember seeing the photo above, She Never Told Her Love, years and years ago at The Met. I was walking through a hallway to get to another exhibition, and there it was. I was drawn to it; haunting and beautiful, it has stayed with me all this time.