It has been four years since my mum passed away. 
Not a day goes by where I don't think of her and miss her. 
Even now, I still have moments where I pick up the phone to call her. 

Today I celebrate her.
I celebrate her heart, as it was the most giving I have ever known. I celebrate her warm and loving nature, her talent and creativity, her kindness, her integrity, her style, her willingness to always go above and beyond for anyone she loved, her natural beauty on the inside and out, her adorable sense of humor, and her bravery. Today I will remember and hold close to my heart all the times that I can remember with her; times we would laugh ourselves silly, times that she took care of me and then the times I took care of her. I will remember all the ways she was amazing. She taught me what it is to love unconditionally. I am so grateful for every moment I got to spend with her, each one I hold in my heart. She was integral in shaping who I am today. Even in her passing, she gave me one of the two greatest gifts of my life. Holding her hand in that moment and being witness to her was the most profound, beautiful and magical experience of my life. 

Today I celebrate her, who she was in her life, and all the ways she lives on in me.  


  1. Lauren, a lot of you is in those descriptive words of your mom, do you know it? You're so similar and I see where you learned it from, although some of it is your own too. Inherent from the wondrous land where you collect your own magic. Beautiful post. I wish I could have met her, although I feel like I meet her every time I'm with you. Pretty special...

  2. It is so beautiful how much she gave you during her life and how much she has given you since. She would be so proud of you. xoxo

  3. thank you to all!! sending you all lots of love and hugs. xo

    a special thank you to lili and christine! love you both and am so grateful for you in my life and your constant support and love in this. both your comments made me cry. xo