4.30.2013

a connection










Something has been unfolding since Friday night, it has been gaining in momentum as the hours pass, reaching it's peak of clarity this morning, sitting here on this rare grey Los Angeles day, at my table, with my tea, in front of my computer. A collage of events colliding. 

I was having an email exchange this morning with my friend Christine, about a Conversation we saw this past weekend at Paris Photo between Phil Collins and Sharon Lockhart. At one point Collins said that he believes that ultimately you become an artist to fall in love (at which point C and I both grabbed something from our bags on which to write this down, it resonated with both of us so deeply in various ways). Each of them talked further about the very personal connections they make with the subjects they photograph, and how they hope that this intimate connection can be felt by the viewer. And this morning as we wrote to each other I started to think that not only is this true for me as an artist, but I think it is also true for me as a viewer. I think on some level, through some kind of osmosis of viewing, I hope I get the experience of feeling even just a moment of this kind of intimacy and connection, a kind of falling for something that I don't have control over, to be overcome and taken by something. I want to create and experience a closeness, maybe not a comfortable one, but something honest. To give something, and to receive something of the same cloth. We wrote back and forth about this, and in our exchange it became clear to me something that hit me so hard last night because of an amazing email from a reader of this blog... that in art, in relationships, in life... we crave connection. We want a witness.


Without weaving in and out of all the ways this is tying in and showing up in my life right now, I will leave it there. But, (very connected to all of that) I want to also say thank you. Thank you to all of you who read this blog. Thank you to all of you who I don't know, but who are out there connected in some way. Thank you to all of you who have written me some of the most beautiful and moving emails about how you are effected by what I write and share here. Thank you all for being a witness for me. I have always thought of making art, and what I express here in ideas and experience and writing, as an act of faith. I think of this space as a place to connect and share, and yet it sometimes feels so removed and abstract to me (the very nature of the internet i guess)... void of true and meaningful connection. But, to those of you who have reached out and trusted me with your stories, I thank you for showing me that it can in fact happen. You have taught me more than you know. The biggest lesson being that when you value and trust your voice and risk by putting something out in the world, its rewards will circle back and return to you. 








(I also read this amazing post this morning, yet another piece in the collage that is unfolding before my very eyes. I'm posting at 11:11am in your honor K)


painting by Landon Metz

18 comments:

  1. Thank you, Lauren. Your generous honesty is such a source of inspiration to me - so glad my post added to your collage. Yesterday, after the most intense part of my own three day process had passed, I enjoyed the rosemary recipe from your absolutely beautiful Plant and Mineral Guide - best bath ever and a piece of my own unfolding collage - the coincidences continue! xo

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    1. ooo! yet another way the cosmos are weaving us together! lovely.
      thank you for this beautiful comment. xoL

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  2. this post is wonderful - you pretty much nailed it!

    a lot of things make sense now, thanks to you!

    and i´m very happy to be one of your witnesses - your place is so full of inspiriation and it makes me calm somehow, giving me the odd serene feeling there´s no need to worry, it will work out.

    i have no idea how you do it:)

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    1. thank you!!!! your comment totally made me smile! SUCH a complement!
      and there is no need to worry. and yet we will... and that's ok. ;)
      thank you for being here.
      xoL

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    1. ohhh sweet Shannon, you know you have played a very special part in what i wrote about above. and how grateful i am for that. i am so happy you reached out. thank you sweet friend. xoL

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  4. So well said, I think we all crave connection! Thank you for putting yourself out there!

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  5. I admire you so and love reading your blog. Bravo!

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    1. ANN!
      I ADMIRE YOU!!!!!
      my bff

      to the stars and beyond
      love you, L

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  6. Absolutely, it's all about the connection and the possibility of seeing that others have the same thoughts we do. :) Love this post!

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  7. Lauren, again, your words linger with me and resonate in a number of ways. This post was extremely meaningful to me and thank you for sharing Kristen's amazing piece. I've enjoyed being a witness and observing the parallels from afar and now I'm very happy to have made the connection! Hope to cross paths with you in the tangible world some day.

    Laurie

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    1. thank you thank you thank you to YOU Laurie! :) happy our paths are crossing

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  8. I love how you call it a witness. We want a witness. And it's true, for me at least. Sometimes the internet can feel extra lonely, because there are so many people but none of them are witnessing you. Yet, when there's just one person that reaches out to you, it makes it all better.

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  9. I love this: "that in art, in relationships, in life... we crave connection. We want a witness."
    It's so true, and something that has been coming up a lot with me lately. It's had me thinking a lot about my childhood and my first memories of wanting to create something or be something (or someone). And then I start to wonder what it all means?!? Like why do we need a witness? I love this, Lauren! You're so inspiring and beautiful and magical!

    xoxo

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    1. HI Joanna,
      thank you for your sweet and thoughtful comment. yes... the what and why is the thing that may take time to reveal itself. to me, the "why do we need a witness" question is interesting... i think part of it goes back to wanting to connect, and wanting to be seen. that that is such a basic need ingrained in all of us as humans. but i am most interested in the magic that does happen once you have one. and to me it is magic, an unseen transformation that occurs before our very eyes.
      how wonderful!

      xoxoL

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  10. Lauren! This is the one that i so badly wanted to comment on. So powerful (as is the relationship between you + Christine). I feel like our purpose on earth is to connect. For some it is through words, others through books, art, painting, sculpture, photography, horseback riding, etc. Whatever it is, it is a vessel for connecting. I sincerely appreciate the notion of looking at a piece of art and feeling the sentiments of the artist, the subject, the moment that it was created in. So spot on! We reach out because we want to touch, we touch because we want to feel, and we feel because that is the universal symbol for life, no? If we can feel then we are alive, and if we are alive than we are witnessing not only our self but those around us whom we feel for and hence, touch. Full circle.
    OK, I could go on and on. Thank you dear one for sharing this. Always so insightful and refreshing and lifting to read your words. Truly.

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