Monday, July 8th, Cancer, 12:14 am PST
When the moon is passing through a water sign, as it is now, our emotional bodies ask for more attention. Our needs are strong, our feelings and desires are deep as we seek a stronger connection to home, family, and tribe.
Cancer is ruled by the Moon and it's greatest concern is that of home, but also the foundation of the self. Just as we connect to and understand our ancestors and our lineage, I think it is important to have an equal understanding of how we are being asked by our souls to transform. I am facing this challenge right now, and it is a difficult one, as I have such a strong connection to where I come from. But, there are times in our lives when holding on to something no longer serves us, and we must let go to discover more of who we are in order to evolve.
I think that is one of the most amazing things we can understand about our purpose in life, that we are here to evolve our souls, and at times heal our lineage. And it is through an understanding of where we come from, and seeing the places that are not healthy, that we can find the motivation and power to transform. Most of the time this asking is not a choice, but more of a demand placed on us. It can hit us in the face, it can be painful to go against our nature, or to break away from something we all feel such a deep connection and bond with, it is where we came from after all, and it is what has shaped us. I think it is especially difficult to make a conscious choice to do so, and at times it feels like a betrayal, our ancestors are what created the world and us, and put the two together. But, as we wrestle with these changes and fumble our way through evolving, we can also choose to have gratitude for our past as we make a choice for a different future.
Since we are in the New Moon were the moon is completely dark it seems like an ideal time to address our own darkness. This is also something that I have been going through on an intense level this past month. And as I have had a really uncomfortable month, feeling my own darkness at my surface, with little light to be found, I have learned that the dark is what makes the light brighter. When I say darkness, I mean your shadow. Just sit there a moment and ask to connect to your shadow, feel what comes up for you. Your shadow is made of the things that you repress and spend all your time pushing down, avoiding, and denying (and if you deny them for too long they can erupt in an unhealthy way). See if you can, if even for a moment, look into it, and have the courage to face it and allow all of it be witnessed. It won't over take you if you have an awareness of it. Darkness is the place of transformation, it is a place of no thing, and in that, it is a place of all things. Darkness, if integrated, is really powerful. This is what has been happening to me, and I was made aware of it through a dream I had last week. After a month of being so uncomfortable in my own darkness, and not being able to escape it, I had a dream that actually showed me how important this time has been. That it is creating more wholeness within, as I accept all parts of myself. And as I said before, it is making my light brighter and more true and authentic, as the light is no longer a denial of anything. Just as we acknowledge the cycles of the New Moon, and the night sky, let us take time to acknowledge our own darkness within. It is a powerful energy.
Now, on to New Moon wishing... during this time you are allowed ten wishes maximum, all wishes must be handwritten on paper, and this must be done with in the first 24 hours of the time of the New Moon, but with in the first 48 is ok too. Because the New Moon is in the sign of Cancer it is an ideal time to wish about anything relating to home, family, relationships, gaining a greater sense of personal security, asking for clarity about your true feelings on something, or even getting in touch with your emotions on a deeper level. Remember that Mercury is in retrograde, so really check in with yourself and be sure it is how you are truly feeling. Be clear.
Since Cancer is a water sign, it is also a wonderful time to connect to anything related to water. This could be your emotions and feelings, or it could be more literal, like spending a day near or in the ocean.
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