3.16.2014

full moon // march










FULL MOON








Crow Moon
Sunday, March 16th, Virgo, 10:08 am PST

With this Full Moon in Virgo you may be feeling like you want to take more time for yourself, quiet and on your own. Today is a wonderful time to do so. Virgo energy may also be working through you in your need to organize your life, rearrange your home, take care of your to-do list. Initiating those new projects, or any new project or relationship, might feel a bit challenging right now as Mars is in retrograde. Mars is the planet of forward movement, and while it is in retrograde (until May 20th) it can feel a bit like you are trying to run through quicksand. There is so much resistance in the air! On top of the already intense energy of Full Moons!

The last few days I have been thinking a lot about what it means to be in the moment, and accept what is. It seems a funny time to be thinking about this as I myself have had lots of resistance in areas where I am normally the first one to jump in, and I had a rather challenging and intense week with things that usually bring me so much fulfilment. We all know the teachings out there about the importance of being in the moment, and not living at the effect of the feelings brought on by living in the past or the future (I would categorize these as thoughts of the mind), and how this awareness of being present can bring peace. To that point I learn more every day how an awareness of being in our body can help us to do this, noticing how things feel and even more by what comes up when we move the body (being active, dancing, running, etc...). And how by doing this a truth about the present moment is revealed, how things can come to the surface and how things can be transformed by moving the body. But, I think a lot about where this might get a little tricky for us. There certainly are moments where having this type of awareness brings us feelings of gratitude and peace, but what about times when we need to simultaneously hold two truths, like love and anger? Or times when the truth of the moment is something that is hard to sit with, like pain or resistance. These are the moments where being in the moment actually becomes really challenging. How do we learn to stay with ourselves in these moments? How can we learn to sit with and honor these things that might not be pleasant or comfortable? Or! The thing I think we all struggle with is how to sit in the question of all this, how to sit in the unknown, and just be with our feelings, not trying to find an answer or a solution. All the while watching ourselves create tiny or big distractions so we don't have to go there. 

I don't have an answer for all of this, and in a way I'm not sure there is one. There is no solution, and that's the challenge. How to just be in the unknown, and in the moment, even when the moment is uncomfortable.  








James Hall Nasmyth and James Carpenter
From: The Moon: Considered as a Planet, a World, and a Satellite, 1874

8 comments:

  1. Thanks Lauren. I appreciate this meditation on the challenge of being present, particularly in learning to be a container for feelings that the mind finds contradictory. It is nice to be with others in the challenge of being on the path... Bill xo

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    1. Bill!
      thank you so much for your comment! your presence here makes my day!!
      xo

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  2. I have been thinking about this so much lately! It's refreshing to hear someone else acknowledge it and admit there is no solution! I have been pondering this riddle; struggling to let myself feel my feelings, judging myself for feeling them, and then trying to be loving and understanding of what I need to feel. I don't know, I might not figure it out but I'll just keep trying to be present! Your posts really add fire to my inspiration; thanks for doing what you do.

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    1. HI Monica!
      thank yu so much for your comment - and sweet words. it means a lot to me that hear that people can connect with what happens and is shared here. :)

      and i think to comment on what you wrote... i think there is a solution - in a way - when i wrote that i didn't mean that it was hopeless and would be like that forever, but rather that there is no quick fix or way to get out of it. that the challenge is just staying with it until it transforms or moves or shifts or lifts! whatever it does. it's not permanent. and i want to thank you for reminding me of something that is KEY in sitting with all of that - self love - how to be loving towards the self, and not judge what's happening, to just let it be, because it is the truth in the moment. but being loving during all of it is really important, and i think in a way that energy helps it transform, or allows for movement.

      :)

      xo

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  3. I love reading your posts and just wanted to say thank you for your moon reports. I check back every full moon!

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    1. thank YOU so much Holly! thank you for leaving this comment and reading what gets shared here. everyone who reads these posts are so much a part of the exchange i want to create here. so thank you!

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      xo

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  4. Hi Lauren-
    beautiful sentiment—self love - how to be loving towards the self, and not judge what's happening, to just let it be, because it is the truth in the moment. but being loving during all of it is really important, and i think in a way that energy helps it transform, or allows for movement....this is ultimately acceptance. :)

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    1. :) you are totally right - self acceptance from a place of love

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