new moon // april


Grass Moon
Saturday, April 18th, Aries, 11:56 am PST

I feel this post will be short and sweet. There is something in the air that is all about directness, clarity, conciseness. Maybe it's the nature of Spring to bring with it the energy of newness, openness, and this feeling of having, saying and doing only what is necessary. I am finding this in my life right now as well, a focus on what is important and necessary. Finding myself even holding back words, only saying what is needed. Maybe it is because I am having some profound physical and spiritual healing right now, but there also seems to be this huge moment and opportunity for clarity. Maybe it was created by the two eclipses, coupled with Spring time - there is now space to see everything clearly - if you are willing. Spring brings with it a moment of reveal - this energy of renewal, where things what were unclear or unseen blossom right before us. Things are falling away and leaving that were not needed. Letting go can be difficult, but also liberating and empowering. When we can let go with love there is such freedom. When we let go it is only an illusion that we then are in a place of lack, or depletion, or without. We must empty our bowls before they can be filled again. And when we let go we are simultaneously drawing something new towards us. We just have to have faith in what we can not yet see.

During this time I urge you to be clear with yourself and others in your life. Being direct with the truth is an act of love. To be honest and truly present is one of the greatest gifts you can give. 

This is a time of courage, clarity, confidence and independence. This is a time of being an individual and being embodied. I am also learning that the more individualized you become the deeper connections you can have with others. A lot of food for thought there. 

Make your wishes this month with a clear mind, do something before you wish to help clear out old energy - meditate, run, dance... something to align and ground you so that you can wish from the most grounded and clear space. You can read how to make your wishes here

Happy Wishing

Sarah Charlesworth, Crystals


barbara kasten

Barbara Kasten
Construct V A 1980
Polacolour photograph



from around

- so, if you know me, and if you have been reading long enough you know that I love dance (i also love creating sets and costumes for dance). I think I have some secret life of a dancer in me. The other night I got sucked into the black hole of YouTube videos about dance...
...here's what I watched :
my newest crush - French choreographer Boris Charmatz - see, Magma - I originally fell for him when he created a dance sequence from a book on the work of Merce Cunningham where he took the 350 photos of 200 projects, and then choreographed a dance based on the chronological order of how they were laid out in the book. Such a brilliant interpretation.
Merce Cunningham - Beach Birds For Camera (1993) - another version
one of my all time favorites - Noe Eshkol - recordings of her dancers during the Sharon Lockhart exhibition
Hand Movie by Yvonne Rainer
this great talk by Trisha Brown with dancers
Das Triadische Ballet - which I had seen a while back but is worth a rewatch
this beautiful piece with ballerina Karina Sarkissova to a Philip Glass number
Lindy Hoppers!

- this wonderful NYT article - Medicating Women's Feelings - as someone who is an advocate for feelings this was some welcomed food for thought

- flipping out over this Valentino dress! So inspiring 

- falling for this wonderful FvF portrait on a traditional textile company in Bagru

- a great piece about artist Lisa Anne Auerbach in the NYT

- the amazing and hilarious Fran Lebowitz talks about style 

- Marina Abromovic Made Me Cry - a great blog dedicated to photos of visitors and participants in Marina Abromovic's piece at MOMA - The Artist Is Present. 

- this I could go on forever about - I have listened to this four times in the last week. An incredible, moving and inspiring interview with Bruce Kramer : Forgiving the Body, on my favorite show to listen to, On Being. Please listen, with your heart. 

- Ava has her 15 min of fame in the beautiful film by Gillian Garcia for Sophie Buhai's new line of jewelry

Rei Kawakubo costumes for Merce Cunningham
Robert Rauschenberg costumes and set for Cunningham's "Summerspace" 
Robert Rauschenberg costumes Cunningham's "Antic Meet"


full moon // lunar eclipse // april




Egg Moon
Saturday April 4th, Libra, 5:05 am PST

I decided not to post yesterday, I wanted to give myself and you some space and room to just sit with the energy that was stirred up from the Full Moon and the Eclipse. Sometimes I find, during Full Moon's especially, when things are being brought to the surface and we are being triggered, when we are feeling intense emotions or overwhelmed, we tend to want to look outwards for answers, often times with this frantic urgency... reading what someone else has to say, seeking answers from people we have decided know more than us such as teachers or healers (and I have at times been one of these frantic seekers). But, I felt yesterday that the best thing was just to practice being with the energy, being quiet and still, and notice what was happening within me. And to learn from my experience by listening. To allow myself to be my own teacher. Sometimes I think we can bypass our own wisdom by quickly jumping to the feeling of wanting quick fixes, clear answers or guidance from outside of our self. Sure, I think we can at times find helpful things that trigger in us greater understanding, that point us in the right direction, things that help us connect our own dots, or that even inspire a desire for a greater understanding and awareness. 

But how do we cultivate more faith in ourselves, in our own ability to understand what is happening in our lives? And maybe more importantly how do we cultivate the wisdom that is inherent in us to trust in those moments of not knowing? How can we stand in the moments of feeling intense emotions and dealing with overwhelming experiences, and let it be ok to not understanding it all, not having the answers? 

I am learning that there is profound wisdom in that place, in the unknown. And that it is a constant challenge and practice for me to stay grounded and trust in those moments of embracing what I do not know. And what freedom comes when I can do that. The possibilities are endless. The sense of connection is infinite. And this comes when I can let go of the confines and boundaries of the known, which is actually so limiting. How shall we grow into the demands of what is beyond us? 

I think there is some link to what I am talking about and this particular moment, this Moon and this Eclipse. With all that is changing around us, all that is shifting inside of us and being redefined, there is a great expanse of unknown infront of us. How shall we embrace it?

Helen Pashgian