Sunday, May 3rd, Scorpio, 8:42 pm PST
A friend this morning asked me if I read anything to help me write these posts. Occasionally I do, to learn about and hone in on any astrological alignment that seems important. But for the most part, no. I just sit down with my computer and reflect and feel into what I have been going through recently. I also pay attention to conversations I have had with people and close friends to see if I can pick up on a through line that connects us all. Something always stands out, as a conformation for what I have been feeling myself. Writing these posts for the past 3 years has been such a practice in trusting myself. And what I have found is that when I really listen to what's going on with me and just write about that, more often than not it's a reflection of what is happening around me, what you are facing too.
I mention this for a few reasons. The most important one as a reminder that you are not alone. Given what is going on in my own life and the personal conversations I have had with those closest to me this past week this is no doubt a very difficult time. I would bet money that everyone of you is facing some major challenge in your life right now - I want you to know you are not alone. We are in a time where our souls are choosing to heal it's most profound wounds, and it is attracting experiences right now in order to do that. Wow, major healing! Sounds great, right? So why does it feel so difficult? Because healing and growth are challenging and sometimes painful. It's not an easy thing to do, and it takes a brave soul to accept that challenge. As you go through this time have the awareness in your heart that whatever you are facing in your life is in the name of deep healing on a soul level. I always say that healing and growth are not easy, if they were, everyone would be doing it.
This is a profound time of healing which means facing some painful stuff about ourselves and our deepest wounds which bring up lots of sadness and pain, and it's pushing us to a place of having to really surrender and let go. Not our natural response when we are afraid or in pain. But that is what we must learn to do in this moment. Let go. It isn't a time of creating something new. It is a time of surrendering what is no longer needed. What must you surrender in yourself in order to heal?
And on top of this challenging time in our own personal histories we have this very intense Full Moon in Scorpio. Scorpio energy is nothing if not intense. The light of this moon is shining deep into our souls, revealing and bringing to the surface the darkest truths. Scorpio energy is all about seeking the truth, it has no judgment about if it is beautiful or ugly or uncomfortable, truth is truth and it wants to reveal it to transform it. The positive part in this process is that whatever is coming up for you is exactly what you must heal. It's not a mystery, it's right there in front of you. So, just know if you are in a place where you feel like things are on the verge of falling apart, crumbling all around you, if you are feeling like you can't take it any more, want to give up then - you are in the right place.
The good thing is that if we can learn to surrender to whatever experience we are facing we can find grace to guide us through. There isn't a lot choice right now on our part - our souls have decided and are setting the course, we just have to trust and be guided by them. The other thing is that if we can learn to love and accept our wounds then we are learning to be more human. How can we help the wounded without first learning to accept the wounds within ourselves? It makes us more compassionate towards ourselves and others. Cultivate a deep compassionate heart right now, for yourself and those around you.
You are not alone.