santa ana

Every year when the Santa Ana winds blow I always think of this Joan Didion essay from Slouching Towards Bethlehem. In her essay, Los Angeles Notebook, Didion talks about the eerie effects on the winds on Los Angeles. I am paraphrasing here, but she writes:

 To live with the Santa Ana is to accept, consciously or unconsciously, a deep mechanistic view of human behaviour. I recall being told, when I first moved to Los Angeles and was living on an isolated beach, that the Indians would throw themselves into the sea when the bad wind blew. I could see why. The Pacific turned ominously glossy during a Santa Ana period, and one woke in the night troubled not only by the peacocks screaming in the olive trees but by the eerie absence of surf. Anything could happen. That was the kind of wind it was. I did not know then that there was any basis for the effect it had on all of us, but it turns out to be another of those cases in which science bears out folk wisdom. 
A few years ago an Israeli physicist discovered that not only during such winds, but for ten or twelve hours which precede them, the air carries an unusually high ratio of positive to negative ions. No one seems to know exactly why that should be; some talk about friction and others suggest solar disturbances. In any case the positive ions are there, and what an excess of positive ions does, in the simplest terms, is make people unhappy. 
Easterners commonly complain that there is no "weather" at all in Southern California, that the days and the seasons slip by relentlessly, numbingly bland. That is quite misleading. In fact the climate is characterized by infrequent but violent extremes. 
It is hard for people who have not lived in Los Angeles to realize how radically the Santa Ana figures in the local imagination. Los Angeles weather is the weather of catastrophe, of apocalypse, and, just as the reliably long and bitter winters of New England determine the way life is lived there, so the violence and the unpredictability of the Santa Ana affect the entire quality of life in Los Angeles, accentuate its impermanence, its unreliability. 
The wind shows us how close to the edge we are. 

here is a link if you want to read the essay in it's entirety
photo: Oasis by Elizabeth Atterbury 


full moon // october


Hunter's Moon / Harvest Moon
Tuesday, October 27th, Taurus, 5:05 am PST

Even a day late... this post is still resisting being written (I can't tell you the amount of phone calls I have gotten while writing this.) I have been sick in bed and decided to give myself a few days off - letting myself off the hook from emails, the phone, and obligations. Knowing that all would be ok without me. But, this post has been looming over my head, I have had so much resistance to writing it, using my cold as an excuse, my head unclear about what is happening in the air right now. Could it in fact be resistance

It is time to look at how resistance is keeping us from moving forward. What little voices, old feelings, unexplainable roadblocks are we encountering? It's really that last one I am interested in; the unexplainable roadblock. We have all been under the effect of this powerful Moon for days before it's peak. Emotions have been high, and there seems to be an unknown and perhaps - at first glance - unexplainable or even light hearted form of resistance that has been a barrier for many things in our lives right now. Saying to ourselves - It's just a cold, a missed phone call, a bump on the head, an unanswered email, my favorite yoga class I don't want to go to, a voice saying "I'll do it later", a feeling of doubt from "out of nowhere"... but is it? That's the question I am asking. I'm not saying that these little things need to mean something on a grand scale or portend some major event. But, rather that it is these little hiccups or bumps in the road that are in fact our own resistance showing up as events that in it of themselves don't mean much, but are masking something bigger and meaningful. It's this "out of nowhere / unexplainable / no big deal" resistance that I am looking at. What is this new form of resistance - what is it masking - how is it working in me - and what does it want? As we learn about our own ways of resistance and bring them to light - is this energy finding new ways of disguising itself?

Keep your eyes open!

With the Moon in Taurus and the Sun in Scorpio this is a time of learning to ground in the pleasures of our everyday life, to anchor in the beauty of our reality, while also nurturing our inner desire to travel to the unknown and unseen aspects of ourselves. How can you create this dynamic in your life right now? Maybe it is through taking the time to cook a big, elaborate dinner for yourself after you have had an emotionally hard day. Or rewarding yourself for speaking a difficult truth by spending time enjoying nature. Or allowing some unpleasant things about yourself to surface and instead of wallowing, take them with you to a museum. Find your own way, but create a space of allowance while being anchored. 

Happy Full Moon and Happy Halloween!

enjoy this song, one of my all time favorites, and it's perfect for the season. Every time I hear it I get teary, and speechless, and think of when and where I grew up. 

Theda Bara


from around

- into this video - clearly influenced by Deborah Turbeville

- one day I want to visit Salar de Uyuni in Bolivia. This otherworldly salt flat is the result of transformations of several prehistoric lakes. The thick salt crust is reported to have 50 to 70% of the worlds lithium. Which I imagine would be incredibly relaxing, as Lithium Quartz and Lepidolite are two minerals with high levels of lithium and are very helpful to reduce stress and aid in relaxation. Oh, and it has pink flamingos.

- a nice podcast on the influence of Joan Didion from the New Yorker. Some interesting points in there about the recent interest in her - a Joan Didion trend in the last few years among a certain breed of young women. 

- The New World Order - my new dream vintage shop - bonkers 

- recently added Holy Motors and 3 Women to my top five favorite movies of all time

- Dior's flower mound at the Louvre for Paris fashion week made me gasp! So sad to learn that Raf is leaving Dior.

- the wonderful Miranda July talks to Rihanna

- a great piece about Gloria Steinem in the New Yorker. She always been a heroine of mine.
"Lead with love. Low ego - high impact. Move at the speed of trust."

Nadav Kander


leslie williamson // fvf

I had the absolute pleasure of interviewing Leslie Williamson for Fruende von Fruenden. Head over to read all about her fly swatter collection, her ideas about the word home, and her desire to get inside and photograph the Vatican. Also, see the great photos taken by the talented Brain W. Ferry

“As artists we wear our heart’s on our sleeve… I like to think that there is a transparency between our homes and our work.”

A big thanks to Leslie, Brian and FvF!


new moon // october


Harvest Moon
Monday, October 12th, Libra, 5:05 pm PST

Yep, it's been a challenging few weeks. Let's just get that out on the table. No one can escape what they are being asked to face in their life right now. Know that whatever is coming up for you is important to your soul's growth. I also strongly believe that everything that is coming up right now is about the past. It's old stuff / energy / emotions / beliefs / dynamic... We recognize it, but it isn't the truth of what is happening. Our present experiences are triggering it and bringing it up, yes, that is true. But where we go when we are triggered is to an old place. A place that isn't a reflection of where we are now. This is crucial awareness to have. What you are feeling is old. And it's not the kind of old that connects us to our linage in a way where we feel we are on some sort of path that has a bigger purpose, or the kind of old that breeds wisdom. It's just old and untrue. 

Take a moment to think about what kinds of things are coming up for you in your life, what feelings you are having, what thoughts... We are so familiar with this energy that it is so easy to believe it, to buy into it. To say, "Oh ya, here it is again, that thing. I always feel x, y & z when this happens." The things coming up are things that we have seen and felt before. But this time, they aren't a reflection of where we are and the truth of the situation. I don't think you can avoid feeling what you are feeling, but I think in order to move through it what is helpful is taking a moment and really asking yourself if what you are feeling is the truth about the situation. Keep doing this over and over as you are triggered and feeling things surfacing.

We have come through a series of really powerful Moons and shifts in the Sky. Some of that energy is still with us as we spend time this month allowing it to integrate. The most important thing is to allow. Allow whatever is coming up to come up. Make space for it to come through, to spend time with it and see it for what it is, and to nurture yourself through this process. There is a ton of old, deep, energy emerging in us. We owe it to ourselves to feel it, and shift it. Be especially mindful with the Moon and Sun in Libra that you aren't trying to create balance for others by being the peacemaker, by care-taking, or by taking false responsibility for their emotions. This time is really about you. Just keep bringing your awareness back to yourself. 

Also, spend time feeling into where your soul is going. Where it is growing and what is it growing towards?
Let that energy pull you and evolve you towards it. 

With New Moons we have the opportunity to make some wishes. You can read more about how to do that here. With this Moon in Libra it's a great time to make wishes about balance, partnerships that are founded in equality, compassion and service, truthful communication, networking, and business.  

Francisco de Zurbar├ín - detail from Saint Lucy


salon no.13

Salon No.13
Zoe Crosher
Emma Gray
Emilie Halpern
Ariel Herwitz
Lauren Spencer King
Galia Linn
Fay Ray
Samantha Thomas

In the Bedroom
29 Palms

Exhibition is open by appointment
September 28 - November 21

If you can't see the show - see photos of it on my new site, here

Lauren Spencer King, "Witnesses", watercolor on paper on panel, 12" x 16"


new moon meditation // marine projects // venice, ca

In conjunction with Salon No. 13, artist Lauren Spencer King is hosting a 
Monday, October 12th / 7:00 - 8:30 pm / VENICE, CA / $30 / limited space - for the address and to reserve your space please rsvp to laurenspencerking@gmail.com

Breath is what connects us to each other, to every thing, to all times. This is a two part active Pranayama Breathwork meditation that is very healing. Though the breath is simple to learn, it is quite powerful and profound to experience. Clear emotional blocks and stuck energy which will allow you to open up and connect to the universe, dive deeper into the self, and tap into your truth and intuition.  Through quieting the mind you create space to listen with your heart. Leave feeling peaceful, grounded, and expansive.

This is also a great opportunity to see the show.