new moon mineral breathwork meditation

Please join me for a very special NEW MOON MINERAL Breathwork Meditation.

This is the first in a series of Mineral Meditations. This month we will focus on DANBURITE. You will get a mineral of your own to work with and take home with you. During the circle we will talk about it's properties, how to clean and care for it, you will learn to work with it's energy while setting some New Moon wishes, and you will get the opportunity to experience its healing qualities during our meditation. 

Saturday, MAY 7th
10:00 am - 12:00 pm
Venice, CA
Space is limited / to reserve your space please RSVP to me. 
The location will be emailed to you when you RSVP.
laurenspencerking @ gmail . com

Breath is what connects us to each other, to every thing, to all times. This is a two part active Breathwork meditation that is very healing. Though the breath is simple to learn, it is quite powerful and profound to experience. Clear emotional blocks and stuck energy allowing you to open up and connect to the universe, dive deeper into the self, and tap into your truth and intuition. Through quieting the mind you create space to listen with your heart. Leaving you feeling peaceful, grounded, and expansive.


full moon // april


Grass Moon
Thursday, April 22, Scorpio, 10:23 pm PST

Ahh... it's like putting on my favorite cozy sweater. We have arrived at our Full Moon in Scorpio. I am a Scorpio, and having 5 planets in Scorpio I feel very at home in its energy. I think Scorpio energy can feel really good or really challenging depending on what sign you are, for some signs it's really tough. It's a very intense sign and it's energy wants to take you into the deepest darkest crevasses of your being, of your soul. It doesn't shy away from the other half of life, the parts that are heavy, and icky, and not pretty, and dark, and shadowy. It wants to face these parts of the self and of life because there is just as much truth to be found in them as there is in the others, and its energy isn't afraid of what might be found in these places. Scorpios are above all else dedicated to the truth in things, they want the truth, even if it's painful. And right now with the Sun in Taurus I feel there is an opportunity to see the beauty in these things, these parts of ourselves. How do we look at the ugliest of truths, the shadowiest of desires, the most destructive parts of ourselves and still hold them as something beautiful? Beautiful because they are a part of us, just as much as all the things we try to show to most of the world, and highlight, and live from every day. I think there is this idea out there about living in our "highest truth", or our "brightest self", or with grace... or whatever New Spiritual word you want to use. I always find that inauthentic. It totally denies half of who we are. What is it like to live holding both parts as equally true? Equally you.

Full Moons have a lot of pull on us emotionally, so I am sure things that you thought you were over with are surfacing. The Moon pulling out those last bits that have been hidden in you. Ride those waves and let it flow. I feel during these next few days it's important to enjoy those parts of ourselves. To allow the energy of the Sun in Taurus to help us ground into those parts of ourselves, not to let them overtake us, but just allow them some space to be seen and explored, and maybe even released. And we can hope for transformation during this time, Scorpios are the master transformer. See how much you can enjoy this time. See how much beauty you can find in it, and if not beauty than at least acceptance, or the willingness to just be brave enough to look at those parts of yourself. 

Try standing outside tonight in the light of the Full Moon, letting its light shine down on you, illuminating all parts of you, the dark and the light and everything in between. Feeling seen. And feeling the beauty in you because you are made up of both.

And don't forget, right now we have FIVE planets in retrograde: Mars, Jupiter, Saturn, Pluto and Mercury. Retrograde times are really tough - especially if you are resistant to change. Retrograde times are really about interruption. The purpose is to: interrupt, stop, and change the motion of life, living in a brief period of chaos. This interruption causes a lot of things to come up, "go wrong", crumble, change, etc... but it is really an opportunity for the old to break away so that you can realign your body and life to the NOW. The way to do this is to not go up (to spirit or the mind) and transcend the difficulty by being above it, but to surrender to what is happening and go down into the body, the body knows how to transform and flow with the energy that is coming into your life. 
Keep thinking of every challenge that comes your way as an opportunity.  

South of Sun - Haris Epaminonda


the gleaners

The Gleaners

by Lauren Spencer King

There is a print that hung in my mother’s bathroom. Within the frame are three women working in a field. They are bent over at the waist at such an angle that you can’t see their faces. Their labor looks hard and tireless, but also necessary. They have layers of blouses, skirts and dresses all in muted colors and the soft brown tones of the earth upon which they are silhouetted against. Each with their head covered and their hair tucked into bonnets, their aprons tied around their waists and then tied again to form a pouch in which they hold the scraps of wheat they are collecting. All three women hold small handfuls of leftover mismatched stalks. 

This print is a replica of a painting entitled The Gleaners by the french artist Jean-François Millet. The original was painted in 1857 on the heels of the French Revolution. It was not well received when it showed for the first time in the salon. It made the upper-class uneasy about their already unsteady position in relation to the uprising of the working-class. But, Millet was committed to painting things as they were, nothing was idealized. His aim was to reveal the truth about living, what it was to be human, to reveal that struggle. No pastoral scenes of leisurely picnics or elaborately dressed women having a fête in the garden. All of the innocence and frivolity of the Rococo period died with the royal family. His paintings were about representing the hardships of the everyday. They depicted the work of farmers and bread makers, of a husband and wife praying over the fresh grave of their child. His paintings were of people trying to survive the circumstances of their life, of unforeseen losses and defining hardships that became their namesake. Millet himself grew up in poverty and on a farm; if anything he was just painting what he knew, and telling the story of where he came from. 

The Gleaners now hangs in the Musée d’Orsay in Paris. I saw this painting with my mother when I was living there. She was visiting for the holidays and we spent the day at the museum. I remember seeing it across the room, the humble subject matter hanging in its heavy gilded frame. I called her over as I walked towards it, with a feeling in me like we were going to visit a family heirloom, something that belonged to us. In its presence I felt a feeling of familiarity, not just because I recognized it from years of looking at the print, and seeing slides of it in art history classes. But also because since I was little I was told that we were related to the painter, who shared his last name with my grandmother. Her maiden name was Millet and she was a painter herself. In the story of this occupational and genealogical connection my mother always did the telling convincingly, but would sometimes hint at a tiny bit of doubt, on whose account I do not know. “I mean, I don’t know, it’s just what nana always said…,” she would sometimes add on at the end. It always made me wonder if this was something that really was true or if this was just a family fiction, something my grandmother had only wanted to be true, and used her greatest skill to create a fantasy for herself, constructing her ideal identity. 

My grandmother died when I was just reaching my early adolescence, so it was never something that I could confirm with her. And this was a story my mother only told me, never my brother, or anyone else in the family. Now that she has also died it falls on me to decide if I want to make this story a fact, and to choose how I want to do the telling to others. And to my future children, who could carry on the bloodline of this story or not. To call it a story seems right, as stories can be both truth or fiction. But what do we call something that has elements of both?  Perhaps those are what we call memories. 

I came across this print recently while packing up boxes. I stared at it trying to decide if it was something I wanted to keep. This is the process I have to go through with every single item in my mother’s home, which is the house I grew up in. The importance of objects takes on a whole new definition when someone dies. In one moment they are just things, and in the next they become imbedded with new meaning. My mother’s nightgown, her sheets, her eye glasses strewn all over the house, stacks of check books with just a few checks missing in each, a drawer full of important documents and old passports, her makeup brushes, a basement full of old christmas decorations and many suitcases that were used only once… these are just a few of the hundreds and hundreds of things that are left of her. These objects take on the role I need them to play in my grieving. At times they become a stand in for her. In others they become clues to piece together more of who she was. And at their worst they are merely empty shells and burdens. A house full of objects is what I have left of her. 

The work of gleaning was traditionally done by women. The task fell upon the women to comb through what was left from the harvest. It’s how the poor learned to live with so little. It’s the gleaners’ job to pick up the scraps of what has been left behind, it’s how they fed their families. They spent long, arduous hours every day searching carefully through the fields for the forgotten, the lost, and the discarded, trying to piece together something that could in no way fill the void, but what was only a substitute. It’s what they did to survive. 


LSK at Regards

Very happy to share that I have a show opening with Hirofumi Suda at 
Regards Gallery in Chicago.

April 16th - May 28

Everything is Finished Nothing is Dead
watercolor on paper on panel

new moon / april


Grass Moon
Thursday, April 7th, Aries, 4:23 am PST 

Feel the fire under your feet! You might already feel it in your whole body! There is a lot of fire energy in the air right now with this Supermoon in Aries. This New Moon will be our strongest of the year because it is a Supermoon. A Supermoon means that the moon in its orbit is closest to the earth, and this morning it aligns with the New Moon. It's also known as a perigee New Moon, though over the years the term Supermoon has been adopted, even by scientists. 

So, let's talk about fire energy. Aries is ruled by fire, it is the sign all about willfulness and independence, taking a stand, fighting for the truth... it is warrior energy. The energy of Aries combined with it's ruler of fire can be very powerful and strong. Fire energy is all about truth. It can be very powerful if directed and embodied in a healthy way. Misdirected fire is the kind of fire energy that causes people to be successful and powerful but by being destructive or hurtful to others, it's the person who is sexual but without allowing the fire to move through the heart, it's the anger that bursts through you and makes you feel disempowered or disempowers others, and it's also the energy that makes you feel productive but that leaves you feeling burnt out and tired. True fire energy is sustained energy, it doesn't burn you out, it actually gives you more energy. True fire energy burns everything away allowing you to see the truth. You know you are in your fire when you can see the truth in something/someone (sometimes it's about holding multiple truths) and you don't allow yourself to be disempowered. Recently I have been seeing that there are so many ways we disempower ourselves, and allow others to disempower us. Think about that these next two weeks. Watch for ways that you cut yourself off from your fire, and ways that you allow others to do the same to you. 

With this fire energy and 5 planets in retrograde happening we are also in a time of really having our eyes open to the truth. And if you aren't willing to have them open, they could be forced open, there is no escaping it. I think retrogrades are a great time to realign. They are often very uncomfortable, but only because old things are crumbling so that we can rebuild the self in alignment with the NOW. So, be willing to look at what is coming into your life to help the old to fall away to reveal something more true. This time is only as uncomfortable as you make it, resistance is just met with greater resistance. 

Also, be aware of your anger this month. I am fully in favor of allowing yourself to be angry. But with all this fire and all the retrogrades, a lot of anger could surface, and it could feel overwhelming. Just be aware of when the anger is about the past and when it is about the present (sometimes it can be about both). Also be aware of how you are expressing it and who you are directing it at. And, to the point previously made about healthy fire, notice how it makes you feel. Do you feel empowered by your anger, disempowered, tired afterwards, does it make you want to check out, stuff it down, do you disempower yourself by not expressing...? All questions to be asking yourself as you study your relationship to fire this month. 

Keep your eyes open for signs. With all these shifts and all of this restructuring going on don't be afraid to ask for signs to help you know you are on the right track. I do this all the time; When things are getting hard and I am risking a lot, taking leaps of faith, or perhaps having my faith tested... I ask for a sign. And I always get one. Just keep your eyes open, and allow yourself to be open. It might not come in the form you think it will. 

This is a powerful New Moon for wishing because it is a Supermoon. Make some time today or tomorrow to sit down and write some wishes. You can read more about how to do this here. Light a candle while you do this.  

photo by Friedrich Seidenstücker