new moon / december


Night Long Moon
Wednesday, December 28th, Capricorn, 10:53 pm PST

The last few nights I have seen Venus shining brightly in the sky, calling me to find more beauty, open to new pleasures, and connect to how lovely it is to be human. Venus helps us to find peace, and with all that is going on on our planet, in our political system, and even in our personal lives, peace is needed. But, I really think it is so much deeper than that right now. I think we are being called to find a peace within. A peace between our own dark and light. We can see it so clearly on the planet, but it is just a reflection of what is happening within, and that is often harder to see because, well... it just doesn't feel good to admit that we have the same kind of darkness in one form or another. 

We have just come through a time of darkness, with Scorpio and the Winter Solstice giving us both opportunities and pause to look at our own dark, and our relationship to it. Exposing it is of such importance. JUST by allowing it to come to the surface you take power away from it, you make it harder for it to control you. And remember that when transformed that darkness is power! Allow the parts of you that have resistance, judgment and even blindness to your dark to make peace with the fact that it's there. It's not who you are, but merely an aspect. You are human, to be human means to have darkness. And it is a gift to be human,  to have experiences, it's the only way our soul can evolve.

I think we are coming out of two to three months of witnessing darkness in a big way and we are now in a time of being really honest about it. Almost every friend of mine is going through something big right now. And I keep encouraging them to be honest. To take responsibility of what they are feeling, but to be really honest about it, with themselves and with others. So many things are rearranging themselves, and we must learn to adjust to the ways we are growing. And it seems that things and people are growing at different rates, which can be hard (some things even feel like they are going backwards, and also swinging too far to the other side like a pendulum). The only way to get through it in an empowered and meaningful way that will allow for growth and for breakthroughs is to be honest. I'm scared. I'm hurt. I'm angry. You have to speak up! Speak the things you are feeling out loud! And practice doing this in a way where you own them, honor them, but know you are so much bigger than them.

As the year comes to a close and a new one is about to begin it's a natural time of reflection and looking ahead. I'm not one for intention setting or resolutions. BUT, I do think something worth doing is to feel into the changes that are already working on you. What is being birthed in you? What new energy are you moving into? How is this different than where you have been most of your life? Who are you?
Who are you becoming? 

Spend a little time in meditation, connecting deeply, use your imagination to feel into the energy that is stirring within you, and see if you can use your intuition to feel into the energy you are moving into! It feels powerful and exciting, I can feel it right now as I write this!

This is the last moon writing for 2016, and I just want to say thank you. Thank you for showing up to read this. I have been writing it for over four years and it's funny as I don't know who you are or how many you are, but I sit down to write these every new and full moon in good faith that it is of some importance, of some help, even if just for myself. Wishing you nothing but extraordinary things for 2017, a life beyond anything you could have imagined for yourself!

Yohji Yamamoto and I can't remember


moon list

I had the honor of doing a Moon List for my friend Leigh Patterson

You can read the whole thing here.

creative act:

I was only in the studio the first week of this month. The rest has been spent traveling and visiting family in Europe. I went to the Wallace Collection the other day in London. I remembered how important it is for me as an artist to walk around a museum alone and in silence. Especially one with art that predates the 1900’s. I got so inspired by a myriad of things that excite me about getting back to work when I get home. Things like how the chain that hangs the paintings from the celling looks against the dusty blue silk wallpaper, the contrasting marbles, seeing paintings in person that I wrote about in Graduate School, or looking for an abnormally long time at how the fur of a dead deer was painted. 

I just got so excited about Painting (with a capital P), about what it can do and about what it means to be a painter now in relationship to its history. I remembered how having the space to look and think can be a huge part of creativity.  

Knoll stacking stools, on the set of Heart of Glass - Werner Herzog hypnotizing his actors


full moon / dec


Night Long Moon
Tuesday, December 13th, Gemini, 4:05 pm PST

Hello! I know I took a break last moon, which I have never done in the five years of writing about the lunar cycles. I was traveling and needed a break, so I gave myself one. And I knew you would all be ok without a moon post ;) But, I am back and ready to ease into this Full Moon in Gemini. 

We have our moon in the sign of Gemini and the Sun in the sign of Sagittarius. This is a perfect time to utilize these opposing energies to make new plans for your life. I am going through a period of rethinking how I structure my days, where I am living, how I am living, what is of importance, what are my goals and what kind of lifestyle is in support of those goals. And just in the last 3 days I have had 5 conversations with different friends about this. It seems that everyone is going through a bit of reevaluation. And it seems we are all ready for a change. Sagittarius is great for helping you look at the big picture, because we are in a time where it is more than just rearranging the furniture. You might need to really make a huge shift, this could be literal or energetic. And Gemini energy is really great for focusing on the details, the to-do list, the who's and what's and where's that will help get you there and feel supported. 

This could be a shift that you plan for and work towards, because as we know sometimes real change takes time and practice. Or it could be something that happens suddenly, where you are forced to shift or make a change. Either way it's time to be open to it. No resisting - this just makes it so much more difficult. And if you are experiencing difficulty or pain that is a sign that there is resistance. So instead of fighting the resistance, accept it. Know that you are bigger than your own resistance and just include it, but from a place where you can be a parent to it, not letting it run the show. And embrace looking at yourselves and your life with new eyes! What can be possible in your life that you have never seen before?

The time in between a Full Moon and New Moon is a perfect time for letting go, as the moon lets go of more and more light in each passing moment. Try focusing some attention and dedicating a little time every day to letting go. Letting go of ideas about who you are... to make room for a kind of energy you didn't even know you could be! 

photo by Barbara and Michael Leisgen



A few months ago I had the privilege of doing an interview for the lovely brand Anaak! Their clothes are made with such integrity. Thank you to Marissa, Yasmine and Carissa.

Read the full interview here

— What was the most recent thing you read/ watched/ tasted that took you by surprise, moved you, inspired you?

The work Charles Atlas did with Merce Cunningham, the music of J D Emmanuel, the TV show Stranger Things, Werner Herzog’s movies Heart of Glass and The White Diamond, a yoga class my friend taught on the color purple, reading about Bletchley Park and the Turing Machine, teaching meditation to a seven year old, seeing my favorite film Uncle Boonmee Who Could Recall His Past Lives again on the big screen at an old movie theater, fruit on my kitchen windowsill warmed by the sun and the oppressive heat of the dry Santa Ana winds, seeing the most incredible sunset of my life on the beach with a friend. I have never been IN a sunset before.