full moon / april


Grass Moon
Sunday, April 29th, Scorpio, 5:58 pm PST

A close friend who is an incredible astrologer and all around wise man informed me that Saturn has gone into retrograde on April 17th, until September. "This will make for an interesting summer", he said. Those of you who have gone through your first Saturn return know that Saturn brings with it some big changes and hard lessons. While this planet is retrograding in the sign of Capricorn it will make sure that whatever lesson we have not faced will be unavoidable. This will make for a rough season until it goes direct.

This also seems to come at a time where with this Full Moon in Scorpio brings what has been suppressed, repressed, hidden, avoided, etc... to the surface. I don't know if you feel it, but I really have felt so confronted by my own issues. Being a Scorpio myself I love its energy, but it's rough right now. The good news is that all of this is in service to us becoming more whole. That's one of the amazing things about Scorpio, all of the death, letting go, surfacing of the dark, is in the name of truth and transformation. That is what Scorpios do best. But be careful, because the unhealthy side of Scorpio is that because they aren't afraid to look at the dark or feel the pain or see the s%*t they tend to be drawn to those things too much, or want to just stay in that energy when it isn't appropriate. As my teacher said recently (she's a Scorpio too), "Oh, I have one foot in the s%*t, I might as well put the other one there too." Use the magic and mystery of the Scorpio to keep you fluid and curious through this process, so you don't get stuck in the muck. But also be aware to not further avoid the issue at hand, otherwise you will have an even ruder awakening soon to come.

If you don't know what lessons Saturn and the Scorpio energy are bringing you. Just pay attention to any patterns you see happening in your life, around you and within you. What feels like it's everywhere you look? What feels challenging or like it's difficult because it feels like an old way of being? Your soul is ready to grow right now - times 100. So it will insure that whatever you have not faced inside yourself is everywhere you look outside of you. It will mirror your internal dynamic externally.

Don't avoid what is coming to the surface. Things come to the surface to be healed and transformed. It's a difficult time. No doubt. And right now it feels relentless. Like you can't have a break. Stay aware. In every moment there is an opportunity for growth. Just remember that. ;)

Anish Kapoor, "Building for a Void", 1992 


new moon / april


Egg Moon
Sunday, April 15th, Aries, 6:58 pm PST

I have been writing these for about seven years now, two times a month. It started because I have always loved the moon since I was a kid and I wanted to understand on a deeper level how it was effecting me. My process over the years has developed into something so simple and yet so powerful for me. Around the time of the New or Full moon I just sit down at my computer an check in with myself. I ask myself what shifts I have felt, what I am going through, what have I heard others talking about - is there a theme, and I use my intuition about what I feel is headed our way. I have never read an astrology book or taken a class. But I instead just ask myself - What is going on? Over the years what I have observed has taught me about different energies, different signs, as well as the ebb and flow and how it affects us. And then I sit down to write for an hour and whatever comes out comes out. No editing, no research. Done.

This process has forced me to trust myself. I really feel that my commitment to going deeper has allowed me to be in touch with some sort of wisdom or energy that I feel I channel when I write these. I try to walk the line of knowing that there is something coming through me, a wisdom I can not take credit for, but I still try to honor and own my ability let it come through freely and be the vehicle that translates it for you all. 

All of this to say that this month I am asking you to strengthen this skill in yourself. If I can do it, you can do it. It really is about committing, listening and trusting. 

I have had a hell of a week and a full weekend intensive workshop with my teacher, and am so burnt out I don't have much to give. So, I am cutting myself some slack and asking you to tune in to yourself, others, your surroundings - the universe above you and within you. Start somewhere. Just ask yourself those questions above and see what you come up with. If you feel brave (which is like 99% of developing this skill) I ask that you share what you come up with in the comments. 

Thank you to all who support this practice, those of you who are new and those who have read these since the beginning. Please start to spread and share these posts with others. I feel it is time these grew to reach the next level of readers. 
I will be back in full force for the Full Moon in two weeks.

Happy New Moon to you!

Pierre Huyghe, "Liegender Frauenakt (Untilled)," 2011–12